>~JUNCEN~<

2009-01-07T11:37:00.000+08:00

2009-01-07T11:27:00.002+08:00

Eventful, fruitful and experiential are my feeling for this chiangmai trip. Love the way I was able to play in the field with all the supports which boosted my confidence to the next level. I'm no more a flimsy figure on the pitch. And of course i realised there's still a long way to add values to my skills and to correct some of the mistakes.

I guess the most exciting part of this trip was to experience the local thais way of life as we were given more freedom in this trip. Independence was developed.

There's just too much learning experience gained from this trip which I am really thankful to Mr Goh and those who helped me. :)

2008-11-15T00:09:00.002+08:00

It's almost 2 months and i have not been up here to share my feelings with u!
wohoo it's a long wait for almost 7 months that finally i can playing my dota for the first time yet my mum is nagging at me.
hmmm, you know why? Because she say " Go find a job!"
but but but, this is the first day after "O" levels! can let me have a week of break to recharge.
I am sure i will be fully energised for the coming month of work before departuring for ChingMai for competition. =D

The feeling of "stress-less" is............hmmm, weird.
It's like suddenly you lose the touch, you lose the tempo and you lose gauge of what's coming up.
What am i suppose to do now?
Maybe i'm just stoning....

Summing up the Graduation Nite of 2008 "The Night Of Stars"
It's something similar to last year. I know I cannot compare us with them because we are just different.
However, i felt they were having a better dress sense than us in terms of how they present themselves.
Most importantly, they wont make a fool out of themselves by wearing school uniform or school t-shirt to the 75 bucks event.
Because it just show how moronic or what we called "dan bai" they are!

I like the DeeJay and the band.
Together with the kind of food, i guess the 75 bucks are worth it. :)
Well, the atmosphere was kind of high up as we jumped up to our chairs, waving our nanpkims when the music starts.
Actually I had the urge to hug everyone that i know in cat high but of course, i did not have the time to finish.
A few hugs from some of the best friends were as fruitful.

When the Nite was over, despite some small incidents that brought up the hero Mel, we decided to go around the central looking for something to occupy our time in this young night.
Obviously, Singapore is not the place to find entertainment for teenagers in a weekday night.
Cathay was closed at 12, so did Plaza Singapura.
We were just fortunate to find something at cineleisure but the LAN closes at 1am.
Quantum of Solace occupied the morning and after that we squandered our time at the coffee place outside cineleisure.
Poker, games.... etc.
We even had a maggi mee inside the stand.
And really glad to have a friendly staff who understands us and allows us to do so.

Having spent 4 years at a place is not easy.
It is even more difficult to depart from it when u starts to have emotions for it.
Catholic High, my second home, the guardians who sacrifice their time and effort for us.
I salute you guys! Love your always! For ur selfless and dedications to us!

2008-09-16T18:20:00.002+08:00

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The last hurdle of the route to O level comes to an end. Now, it's only the last stretch of 10 metres for us to give it the last push till we reach finishing line of secondary school.
I have to say, it's been a difficult time for all of us. The stress, the pressure, the anxiety, the eagerness, the endurance and so much more.....
My eyes are not set on the last goal, the last 1 month and 6 days!

The next 3 days will be spend on script checking, i do hope the results will come out fine.
Well, my target is below 10 and this will definitely be a boost to my O's preparation. hahaha, just hope for the best. :)

I guess even if i did badly, i still have to accept it and it's my results afterall.

Like what Mr Julian Teo said, O's is not everything, although we have to mug hard, there's still other things we have to put in mind.

Maybe it's the cleanliness of the classrooms to him but for me, it will be a positive heart in the belief for our teachers who will guide us to the right path for the right results in O's.

Furthermore, good news to me is that, i have my L1 1 secure, just believe in your hardwork if u did put in.

I guess i'm becoming random here.......

Nevertheless, i should be happy today!

I saw the name that i'm looking for so long. happy happy! hehehe......

remember, SUCCESS IS PREPARATION MEETS THE OPPORTUNITY!

The success of some men bewilders those around them because they never seem to work, or to work for any length of time. Their secret is their power to concentrate, and thus to obtain the maximum of results with the minimum of apparent effort.
“Concentration”, say Emerson, “is the secret of success in politics, in war, in trade, in short in all management of human affairs.”
Concentration is a habit of mind. Men are not born equal in their power of concentration any more than in their power of playing billiards. But up to a point every one can improve his power in every direction. This is the age of specialists. Remember that concentration is necessary not only to do things, but to select what to do. In these days no one can achieve great distinction unless he concentrates on some one thing.
It must be remembered that concentration is an exhausting mental and physical business for those who are unaccustomed to it. Therefore, to begin with, the strain should not be too prolonged. Attention should be relaxed for a suitable period. In other words, the habit should be gradually formed. Brisk, vigorous concentration for a quarter of an hour on the first day may be gradually expanded into two hours or more at the end of a month. The essence of concentration is that the full powers of the mind and body cannot accomplish this to the best advantage, and in the case of children and young people harm may result from prolonged efforts.

2008-09-12T23:41:00.002+08:00

hi guys! it's rare to see me here now right! hahah, definitely i guess, O level is round the corner and i'm still spending time on blogging? ~crap! hahah

well, i'm just taking this opportunity to share some of my thoughts.
it's quite confine for me recently since daily routining is becoming some how tasteless.
nevertheless, perseverence still will last till the end of the last stretch of race. our 4 years of preparation cannot go down the drain, right?
look at all the teachers,
they stay back almost everyday to set papers and give us distinction questions.
well, let this exam repay them their fruits of labour hopefully.

All of us ought to be able to brace ourselves for the predictable challenges and setbacks that crop up every day. If we expect that life won't be perfect, we'll be able to avoid that impulse to quit. But even if you strong enough to persist the obstacle course of life and work, sometimes you will encounter an adverse event that will completely knock you on your back.

Whether it’s a financial loss, the loss of respect of your peers or loved ones, or some other traumatic event in your life, these major setbacks leave you doubting yourself and wondering if things can even change for the better again.

Adversity happens to all of us, and it happens all the time. Some form of major adversity is either going to be there or it’s lying in wait just round the corner. To ignore adversity is to succumb to the ultimate self-delusion.

But you must recognize that history is full of examples of men and women who achieved greatness despite facing hurdles so steep that easily could have crashed their spirit and left them lying in the dust. Abraham Lincoln overcomes a difficult childhood, depression, the death of two sons, and constant ridicule during the Civil War to become arguably greatest president ever. Helen Keller made an impact on the world despite being deaf, dumb, and blind from an early age. Franklin Roosevelt had polio.

There are endless examples. These were people who not only looked adversity in the face but learned valuable lessons about overcoming difficult circumstances and were able to move ahead.

2008-08-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

What is love? The eternal question we all carry around deep within our heart. Love is the eternal search. Love is eternal when we find it. But do we really ever find it? When we define it do we negate it? When we set limits on what we believe to be love do we begin to destroy it by hoping to understand or own it for ourselves? We offer it through all of our relationship we vary our giving, often by what we hope to receive in return. But is this really love?

I recently overheard someone say in a conversation that there is no such thing as “unconditional love” . I would have to agree, although for different reasons. Love within itself is unconditional. Anything else is only attempt to love, a learning to get us nearer to the one true knowing of love. It may be honorable, well-intentioned, passionate and desiring, courageous and pure. It may be felt as temporary, but if lost easily it may not have been love at all. Love cannot be thwarted and often fall short of what we hope love will be. This is where we learn we are human.

Love has been experienced as a life of living poetry. Love has been experienced as being the very notes of song, uplifting and generous to the wanting ear. Love has been experienced as the final act of giving one’s life for another in battle. Love has been experienced as choosing to give new life to another. Love has been experienced as an endless passionate over flow of emotion in the arms of waiting lover.

What do you do with the love granted to you each day? How many times do we deny its expression for others because we fear what our own expressions will bring. Are we not denying our creator every time we deny the expression of love.

2008-07-26T21:53:00.004+08:00

Reply to Joel: aiyo, i think he is still fine to you, but that i feel it's quite cynical to me.

Reply, to Maaki: haha, i limit it down to our school.

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Had six hours of remedial this morning and went out with her in the afternoon while ben was unable to fork out his time to join us.

i guess it's better than virtual times everyday, real person is so much prettier than thoughts. All the things, however, still got to be out of reach for me since there's more important things to do.

i guess what i mean for the previous post( the bottom part) is more for someone that irritates me through his choice of words and reactions. It's just my uneasiness when he is been so "mature", while others have to succumb to his feelings and conform?

I still want to be myself, when i'm with my friends, i want to be myself. I just wanted to be person whose emotions are not restricted by your subnormal comments and opinions.

I mean, what do you try to do. I am being myself while u try to change other people's actions?

BE SOMEONE THAT EVERYONE LOOK UP TO? BE SOMEONE EVERYONE LIKES?

BE SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT HIMSELF MORE THAN OTHERS?

I guess even religious did not change you much, instead, it build up your ego to "outshine".

Yet, you know very well that you cant.........

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Well, back to life...

This week is maths time.

Next week chemistry,

the following week is physics,

and last week humanities week.

HEY GUYS, ARE YOU READY!

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2008-07-20T01:40:00.003+08:00

it has been a long time since i last blogged. what a day for me, 19th july 2008. JOEL"S BIRTHDAY! so of course, as a best buddy, a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! haha hope u like the belt and slippers. wear them often okay! i jus feel that maybe birthday is a time for us to show appreciations for our good buddies. therefore, joel, i appreciate u!

the CHMA, that stands for Catholic High Music Award, ended at 2230 tonight. general commnet for this yr was, it was quite okay, a brand new experience from Springsfield on his hosting, guided by mark tan at the side! haha, counting that's his first formal hosting on such a major event, he was quite steady throughout, not very intimidated by the rowdy crowd. floating postcards and flying spark lights. i am most amazed by their special lucky draw this time to be a stamp pasted on a postcard on the brochure. what a waste on the sticker that sticks on the back of my chair!! i was praying so hard that this yr would be stickers again yet i was disappointed.

the limelight for this year was mostly concentrated on Algin Lau. The most popular person in cat high for this cohort of students for the time being. Everyone is so high up and excited when anything falls onto him!

was having chinese followed by biology and maths this morning. jus cant imagine this is a routine that i will be going through for the next few weeks or so before prelim 3. for now, even i hold dearly of my results, i wonder how am i going to endure all these. in any case, for what i know, i will do my utmost.

people ask me, can O's change a person?

my answer is, O's dun, Results does.

what affects me most is my results. the pride in me just cannot allow me to lose out in such an easy way. recalling primary school days when i could surpass the whole class and now, everyone else surpassing me. this contradiction is making me frustrated. i'm not suppose to be such a lousy person. I AM NOT!

“我是整过容，可是你们为什么一直挖人家的伤口？” this sentence is indeed classic to me. coz i jus dun like people to pin point something just to make themselves more superior? or jus want to show off their intellecture in front of girls. If u are, show me in your results and i will let u be more superior than i am. else, i will be jus despising u.

i love night time, it's giving me the comfort and tranquility.

the world that is far reached.

the redundance of pushing out ur hands.

need not stretch ur arms out.

jus stay put, be urself.

there's no different views from people.

i am who i am regardless of my background.

i am showing you the best part of myself and now is you to decide. be the judge urself.

to be conformed or to have an uniqueness in u.

let it be a norm or let it be a potential fashion.

u have the abilty.

it's in you.

Papers are coming back!!!

2008-06-30T19:26:00.003+08:00

Getting back to reality, i am really sad as the papers are back.

But i'm sad that the results i have attained this time is some how an emergency call to my studies.

I did well for English this time, I mean minusing off the careless mistakes, i failed the 50 marks by 1 mark.

For chemistry, i know i have one more portion to buck up on, that is on the new topics of Organic Chemistry.

Both Maths are the greatest failures this time. Not only because i let down Mrs Chew but i felt i have let down Mr Teo and Ms Chow as well.

I'm just sucked.

There are more papers coming tomorrow, i do not pray for the best to come. I'm just scare the better it is, the lazier i am to revise on that subject.

I'm more cautious of this wake up call than be happy now, sad by Jan next year.

As Mr Teo said, "we are the proud France in the Euro Cup."

"we are still relying on Claude Makelele, Lillian Thuram, Thierry Henry."

Our old PSLE t score that never mean much to us now.

COME ON JUNCEN AND ALL THOSE WHO DID NOT DO UP TO THEIR STANDARDS

MAKE IT UP NOW BEFORE WE REGRET.

Holidays Ending...

2008-06-28T15:04:00.003+08:00

1 more day and the sec4s are officially back into machinery mode.

Checking papers is our first stop and after that will be long hours of school days again.

Most probably no chance of going out for anymore outings,

Movies will be watched at home with my old friend, he is cold but able to give so much warmth to me.

No more promises of going around with you, what i can promise are days after days of tys and practice papers.

Will you be sad?

hahah... not necessarily i suppose.

You are more capable than what you and me have thought.

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I watched V for Vendetta yesterday, this morning for more exact.

a good, interesting plot that protraits a well-planned route for everything.

V stands for Valerie, she was one of those guinea pigs used for Bio weapon by the government. While everyone else died due to the disease, she survived and at the same time, her genes was mutated into a body of invincible muscles with ultra-human reflex.

The female leading actor was good looking if not for shaving her hair. The V was never been shown, she was forever under the mask.

A good movie that should not be missed.

In the movie, it very much emphasise on the usage of fear in human. That brings about the totalitarian of this leader.

It says the more cruel animal in this world is non other than human themselves.

ahahaha, see yourselves and you will know what i mean.

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Few days ago, i think waiting for a soccer match in the morning was something quite worthy.

Not just that i win the match for the prediction, it's more about making something for myself.

Realising the the goodness of being in a boys' school.

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2008-06-26T18:59:00.002+08:00

Is it a destiny for me to be like that?

Maybe i should start to believe it since it's becoming more and more common to me!

One time, two times, three times.....

I'm losing my faith towards that portions of hormonal agressions now, am I?

But you out there, can you hear and feel my desperate call? I doubt so.

So it's okay, it shall remain this way till the promise i made in my childhood years.

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Watching soccer tonight,

anyone joining me?

hehe.... be supportive of the soccer event, since lottery may fall.

if not, just for the passion that leads me to indulge in soccer games.

Oh ya, one thing. Jojojojojojoeeeellllll, u better sleep early.

U are not a person who can endure midnight soccer since you are not really interested with the sports. hehe....

It's weird to observe ur face is so glum today, the same one that u had at clavance house!

SO IN CONCLUSION, sleep early! let the players do their job!

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6 days in the one week break, well, i received some news for my results now.

A B3 for Chemistry and an A2 for Biology!

Not as bad as i have thought.

Despite that, there's still a long way to go......

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2008-06-25T22:01:00.003+08:00

Resting at home today,
Hmm, I think staying at home is better than going because---save money! haha
but in the end,
i still went out.
Bowling was fun today,
with ASC(I), Cat High and SJI beside our lanes.
I feel so noob with my slow and steady ball while they were like zhoooommmmm.... curvy wavy balls! what a description
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Bet on Germany and Turkey
(TURKEY YOU BETTER LOSE 1-0)
Anyway, i hope it to be a good semi to watch than that booooring Italy Vs Spain
Losing 5 bucks to pools! hahaha
but it's not good to gamble k! once every 2 years is still okay
too frequent is bad for ur health as in mentally! :)
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well going school tmr
i'm supposed to collect all the shirt for NAMES PRINTING,
if u are involved, please bring ur shirts to school along, dun give trouble to me pls :D
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Movie tmr, i suppose but i dun really noe the timing
Most probably Get Smart, Zohan or Wanted

this portion dedicate to someone..

A lot of times, i'm just afraid. i do not how to express myself to you since i always feel that u are very indecisive about the person u going with. That's why i'm scared, i'm scare not just about the feeling that i might lose but it's the effort and hearts that cannot be replaced. I was trying hard to convince myself. Then O level is coming, all the statistics has shown that having a relationship never gonna make a person excellent for results! Besides, this may be a weakness in you that you tend to be not that considerate for others feelings. The lack of consciousness about how others will think about ur actions.
All in all, what i conclude here is that maybe u never treat it seriously but i hope one day you are not late to see it.

2008-06-20T18:54:00.002+08:00

Today marks the end of prelim 2, FINALLY!

What a feeling of emptiness within as in i just lost the purpose for living since my nights for the next week will not filled with any study stress.( hopefully!hahah)

After the completion of every paper, i will be like reflect on the work i have just done. Did i do badly, or did i just performed my best?

Of course i hope for the latter when i attained a better and lousy when i attain the former! hahah, am i a typical kiasu student?

For Higher Chinese --->> Not bad, because i just receive the results and i got an A2.

For Chinese Lit----->> 70%, a B i guess since i mug like whole night plus copy, and read the essays for more than 3 times.

For Geography--->> My best subject so far, should not be doing badly, i suppose. hehe

For Chemistry--->> hey, i'm the chem rep! but i think i did not quite well as a chem rep! hahah

For E maths--->> well, just as unexpected that i do not know how to do some of the questions inside the paper, hence a conservative assumption, 70 will be good!

For Social Studies--->> my model essay is with Venice, of course i will not attempt it. Who in this school will revise the Venice when it will not be coming out for O Level? muggers! hahah

For Physics--->> i wanted to kill myself okay! throw away 5 marks so necessarily! ms = millisecond! 1/1000 and not 1/100! remember now!

For Biology---->> not as difficult as i thought but very tricky! Of course, i know how to do all the questions---- after the papers are handed up! :D

For A maths--->> I will be happy with a B now. i'm not looking for As for the time being since i still need some time to get use to all the strange phrasing.

ALL IN ALL, i'm happy that prelim 2 is over and a week of break for the tired minds.

ENJOY YOURSELVES WITH PEOPLE U LIKE! :D

BYEBYE!!!!

2008-05-29T00:49:00.005+08:00

It's always difficult for people to realise the hardship others went through. It is even more tough to express it through words unless you are indeed a person who is very literate, having a excellent command of your language.
Well, ever since i was born, there have been many disasters happened throughout these years, yet non of them touches me more than this.
I'm not very sure why i'm so emotional this time. Or maybe it's a time, a period of change, a moment of transformation in myself to realise the preciousness of lives.
We always see people complainings this and that, most of the time, we ignored or maybe on the contrary, support them.
Now that i have regretted, i regret to complain when i see the determination of victims and the casualties been buried under tonnes and tonnes of rubble. The burden on them were then actually not an obstacle, they were the stepping stones to spur their will to live on. They put their trust on the army who work almost 24hours around the clock trying to salvage any form of lives within the piles of collapse houses and office buildings.
Often, we see the lack of purpose of studying, or it's too bored doing it day after day,week after week, year after yeart. Yet when we compare ourselves to those people to die holding a pen in their hand...... i could feel the shame on myself as if someone just gave me a tight slap across my cheeks.
It'a a wake up call.
Treasure our chance, cherish the opportunites, make use of every second that we have while our hands are still warm and capable of making a difference not only to us,it's to others around us.
Our purpose of life sometimes is not only for us, it's for others too!
I see stories of a man struggle through 30 years doing the same job alone. When people asked him what spur him to stay at his post for this long, what's your purpose of life then?
The man answer was simply, it's for my family.

可能是没经过战乱洗礼，天灾人害，人们都是那么的居安而不懂得思危。

总有一种哭泣让我们泪流满面。

我一直希望看到一次总理的笑，我想看到一个共和国总理人性的一面，但是我从来没有在电视上见过他笑，这次看到他流泪了。

我一直拒绝感动。年初冰雪之难，他八天之内三赴江南，我没有感动，那是职责所在。他钻进卧铺客车问候乘客，我没有感动，那无安全之虞。这次四川汶川强震，在赶往灾区的飞机上，在临时搭建的帐篷里，他讲话，我没有感动，这是一国总理应该做的。

我就一句话，是人民在养你们，你们自己看着办。当他对官兵说这句话的时候，我没有感动。一个共和国总理该有这样的果敢毅然。

千方百计进去，早一秒钟进去就可能救活一个人。当他对官兵说这句话的时候，我没有感动。一个共和国总理该有这样的民生情怀。

挺起不屈的脊梁，这七个字是他去年在云南普洱地震灾区的黑板上写下的。现在，他向遇难者遗体鞠躬。

我看到他的脊背有点不堪了。
他憔悴了。

他消瘦了。

他是一位近七十岁的老人了。

我们谁愿看到，一个父辈一样年纪的老人，这个时候出现在余震不断的地方。

他对都江堰的百姓说，现在正在下雨，天气又冷，大家要吃苦了，但坚持一下，过一段时间情况就会好转的，大家就可以回家了。

雨淋湿了他的头发。

雨淋湿了他的衣裳。

这个时候，我感动了。

党说，一切以人民利益为着眼点，为出发点，为落脚点，现在，他踩着泥泞，上了瓦砾堆。共和国总理现在的落脚点在废墟上了。

他摔倒了。

一个现场转播的记者网友说，如果你现在看见老爷子的样子，你马上就会哭。
他的手臂受伤了。

他把医生的手推开了

他哽咽了。泪从他的眼里流出来了。

他看到抢险人员正在解救两名困在废墟下的孩子时，他流泪了。他说，我是温家宝爷爷，孩子们一定要挺住，一定会得救。

我看到了他的忍耐，我看到了他的悲悯，我看到了他的情义，一个共和国儿子对他的人民的血肉真情。人民称他老爷子，这是他应得的尊重，这是他应得的荣光。

总有一种哭泣让我们泪流满面。

一切想着人民，一切为了人民，一切为人民的利益而工作。这是他说的。他也是这样在做。总理不哭。你的人民做你不屈的脊梁，天大的灾难，我们一起扛。

天变不足畏。
天若有情天佑华夏。
from xinhuanet

2008-05-14T21:16:00.009+08:00

Sometimes, i think maybe we went overboard.

Sometimes, i think we are undoubtedly not appreciative.

Sometimes, i believe we are genuinely incorrigible.

Sometimes, it appears to me that whether the kind of education we are having in the school is making us a better person(this should be the gist) or just, basically, a studying machines.

Four fruitful years in school, it's time for us to pause and ponder whether the actions we have done reflects a correct, socially accepted behaviours on us. What the school have taught us through these four years, the values it try to instill into us, are we digesting and make use of them in our life?

Honestly, it was a bad day for me. I felt so frustrated(even though i am very thankful for the efforts of the HCL teachers) to be practising Chinese works in a place that is not conducive for learning. Despite such a frustration, we were truthfully last minutes workers and always pushing to the limits. If the teachers do not push us now, they will not have the chance later in the year.

It's five months into this brand new year of hope, yet, besides physically drained, I'm mentally exhausted from all the activities around me. I can proudly announce that sleeping is the best leisure of all, including DOTA! It's not that i do not have the interest to play but i simply cannot find a time to start. Every hour, every minute and every second i have shall mend for revisions and more revisions. This time i spent on blogging is also an expense from my Addition Mathematics November Paper 2.

Of course, besides everything on practising, what i want to talk about will be our dear sports class.

A promising yet disappointing class i supposed. Promising that we have been always bringing glories to a school that has never known for excellence in the field of sports. Contradictorily, we have been a disappointment in academic and behaviour. I wonder what is the use to have some black sheep that only brings sports excellence yet fail to behave like a normal, know-what-to-do-at-the-right-time people. It is such a paradox for the programme. It is a disgrace for the class to have people who only think so much about themselves, fuck his individualism, fuck off okay. FUCKING OFF for making stupid comments on others when he himself is a bastard. I never detest some people so much till i heard they rymth lines in criticism on a teachers who have put in SO much efforts to guide us. She a someone who never fail to have a thought for others. Yet, she has such discrimination in return. Bunch of bastards...... What is so fun to make fun of teachers?

WILL YOU FEEL GOOD IF PEOPLE MAKE FUN OF YOU?

2008-04-18T19:40:00.002+08:00

hey hey, i'm back by popular demand, in fact i think if my mugging goes on, i would not have time to come online anymore. School is usual with more and more revisions. Although it does some help to my poor performance recently, it has been somehow tiring and stressful to my mind.

Well, after such a long time, i think i should post some pictures

Hope your remember this, the first class outing that we did as a class. Actually, our class has always been the same after 3 years( we were different class in sec 1) we are able to work together with some sort of coordination only under certain circumstances.

i just love this, reminds of Ben. haha...

maybe i'm just lack of ideas for blogging. Hopefully i will improve with the new english tuition by the school.

2008-03-13T23:32:00.002+08:00

I went for combined school selection on Tuesday and Wednesday. Through these two days of trial, I do find some areas of mine requiring improvement if ever i wanted to get into their team, but sadly to say this is my last year i supposed. Actually, from a holistic point of view, i do learnt a lot from this experience and one of them should making friends with other softballers from other schools and, amazing our conversation is hardly going about the softball in Singapore but towards our school and the way our coaches had taught us to be, as a softballer. Nevertheless, this interaction breaks the barrier between us and get us together as a team.
One thing that i was disappointed for the selection would be the way they test our skills. In my opinion, to really brings our the talent and skills we had learnt throughout the years, we need to be tested in different sections. By allowing games as a form of selection will conceal the talent of a skilled player if the ball never go to him, when there was no tight situations for him to perform this composure and presenting himself in aplomb. I take our catcher as an example when he has the strength and ability to do really well, his luck does not bring him to that level. 4 walks for the two days trial diminished his skills and hard work during his training time. In the end, the talented not shown as a whole. I mean like what a waste!

Anyway, I received a bad news recently. As i had thought earlier, or i was happily thinking that as the first generation t receive PR guarantee me two years free from National Service was a false alarm. That faithful morning might had destroyed my dream to catch up with the age gap.
"Hello, may i speak to Mr Zheng Please?"
"Oh, Yes?"
"Hi, this is blahblah calling from Ministry of Defence"
"Uhhuh"
"We wanted to inform you that regarding the registration for NS..."
"WAIT! I thought i asked your to help me check if i need to serve NS?"
"Oh.... It says that you need to serve"
" HUH! Can you check first! Coz I'm a PR Under the scheme of Professionals, and as the first generation to become a PR, i suppose there is no need for me to serve NS?"
"Sorry, i have checked with my officer and he confirm that u need to serve NS as you are under the scheme of MIS."
" Oh SHIT! oh okay. thanks........."

The long silence left me in shocked but it's time for deferment. 既来之，则安之。船到桥头自然直。

2008-03-05T21:29:00.003+08:00

Today, we witnessed the arrival of another zone champion after our volleyballer. As we all had expected, the return of the key players indeed played a part in clinching the title. The little failure we had actually meant to be a wake up call for those idiot(as in attitude) out there. To have a clearer sense what should be inbuilt for them in cultivating a good value, followed by a decent character.

Logic

I had a conversation with someone recently regarding good players and great players. A point of view was made then, in fact it is true that everyone can be a good player when he or she willing to make an effort enduring through the different stages of training. The trainings ranging from physical to mental by means of bringing different situation into the ground, onto the field. Face the pressure and push yourself up for the challenges and overcome the mental blocks at obstacles. For a good player, one may need just a subtle amount of difficulties in training and in a small country where we stood, it is quite guarantee you will at least be able to make it through the Average Joes, or sometimes, making it top to the peak.

Yet, why do our coach insisted us to train the extra ten percent transcend from our optimum?

Of course, you might think it is to let us have something to fall back on when your form was not at peak, there was still 100percent to take on the fight. This was a rational thinking somehow but to me, what impacted me more was training the extra ten percent was to bring out the inner strength that was hidden in the forbidden city of our body. Just like our brain which we could only use a fraction of it. It is the inner strength that brought us to the prime of our sports, at the same time, there was something more important coming alongside with it. Character, one of those most importance components of a person's composition that helped to build the value and
significance of self. A player without a good character is like a body without it's soul!

Basic habit of just conscientiously tucking shirt and not wearing ankle socks in school may counted as trivial yet there was a colossal connection to the character of the person. A simple act of a person without the surveillance of anyone best reflects the personality. Hence, there's a saying to catch you when no one is watching.

Back to life, someone asked me this question. "Who is the best friend of ongey?"
At that point of time, the world of mine freezes! I could tell you, my mind is stagnant by then, no thoughts, no clues. I'm absolutely lost. Basically, I could not find a good argument to rebate the question. As a reflect back to days when i just entered the school, everyone seen so new and distant. I did have this idea wondering if i had ended up in a wrong school though. I just could not get use to the environment fully soaked, penetrated with MALE! It was indeed quite a challenge for me to overcome that difficult times and found friends who i believed, are true to me. Being a older one, it was hard to have the same mindset of people younger than you, what i found lucky was i inherited a good pair of eyes and ears. They enabled me to observe and listen to my environment, making good judgements at different times. I could confess that my life would not be as interesting if i were to land in the mainstream. Being part of the sports class not only brought my joy of enjoying sports, also, it indulged me to my passion of running about, made my limbs work to the rate they were capable of. Besides sports, i knew i found people who truly cared and concerned about me. People who i called them friends. People who will share moments of joy and sadness with. People who you rely on other than your close kins. This is not kinship,instead it was known as a brotherhood that bonded our hearts together, regardless of our differences. What we called love, through our words and actions that touches our hearts which once kept only to ourselves.

Therefore, I could only thank for the presence of your guys who have always been the pillars of strength, the stronghold which keeps me standing, the hands that always willing to help, and the words always prepared to console, the ears always listen to every single portion of me.

Nothing, but just the link.

2008-02-22T21:48:00.005+08:00

An old saying has repeated its fate as our fruit of labour gave us the sweetness of winning the Catholic High School Annual Country Meet 2008.

PHILLIPPE RULES!

21st February, our fateful day as we gather. With ambience of joyous, excitement, jubilant, most importantly the spirit of Catholic High Family roamed the whole Bishan Park 1. Certainly, this has been the day I'm waiting for after three years of 2nds.

Three years had been hard but I thought it to be something worthy to wait for. Besides, this victory was not just brought by me, without the efforts from the rest of the Phillippians, we would not be able to reach such height. As i was telling the runners and myself that

"We are not just running for ourselves but for the house, for sec 4s, it's to left the heritage for our juniors to follow!"

Indeed, our efforts paid off for such a marvelous achievement for Phillippe winning the first Challenge Shield for Cross Country ever since this event began. Also, it's a heart warming for teachers who joined the Teachers' race and teachers who volunteered themselves at the back of the mass run pushing the slowers ones on. They put themselves on the front line, fighting the odds together with us.

Finishing the race was quite arduous for those who lack of fitness, yet I’m thankful for the majority who were able to complete the 3.5 km route. Earning the points was second priority then, overcoming their physical aspects took the centre stage.

Receiving the Challenge Shield definitely delights anyone, more importantly I felt Fate was still kind to me.

Edward House may have an interesting way of cheering on that day; the true limelight of the day absolutely will go to Mr. Steven Quay, who was such eye catching figure during the cheers of Noel House.

"WHO"S THE BEST!" incorporated of the hands around his head! "NOEL!" The crowd replied in shirk….

On the other hand, our Philippe cheers certainly a worthly opponent to all three houses with the coalition of the whole. In addition of the Ehengicious and Longicious! Who can resist the force! haha....

2008-02-16T21:32:00.004+08:00

Back after the liberation from the heart breaking prelim, i have deduced that this is the worse wake up call for me from my 1 year of dream. I have netted in more than 15 for my L1 R5. The most atrocious result ever in my 18 years of life. Furthermore, this is the start of a fresh year, but it beginned with a bad note.

Despite this short comings, i do possess a positive view on this finishing when it clearly pointed out all my weaknesses, in either languages and theory-based subjects. It will not be a flying start but at least, this will be a favourable commence of adjustments on my study techniques and memorising skills.

人生大舞台，舞台小人生，入乎其内却超出其外。我不能隐瞒自我挫折，失败，被彻底摧毁，但还有那置之此地而后生。没人有平坦的一生，我们总需要一些在路上的坎坷从而让自己升华，认识许多人一生都在寻找的真谛。在人生的冲刺当中，我们还是希望能运用古人之智，遥望未来憧景。在茫茫人海中不失去对生活的渴望，不当一个匆匆的行人，让都市的忙碌的盲目掩盖你的双眼。不被吴仁玷污我们纯洁的心灵。

2008-02-08T11:56:00.001+08:00

After an approximately 9 years, this year's reunion dinner is the most precious course of meal for my family. For the first time in 9 years, we spent the Chinese New Year Eve together as a family. A great sensation that brings about the new year, a time for family to be in unison. Although we quarrelled, fight, at times conflicts, this festive season had just brought a closure.

Went for our annual visit to my uncle's house. Exciting and appealing for all the laughters and convivial moments that could only be felt once a year. Also to meet my uncle's daughter who will be going abroad in continuation of her studies in Australia. I do and hope that she can do well and have an enjoyable time to pay for all her labour kind of effort.

Also, we watched the Kungfu Dunk yesterday. Witnessing the birth of another super duper star in the making but, the public's preferrence still fall towards Stephen Chow. People are simply cant resist the temptations from the imaginative mind of the Master Chow than Emo Chou. Besides, it's comparing fluffy alien dog with a plain red basketball. In addition, the age gap of the two stars, which means the difference in experiences. Expressing which is finer in their cleverness to suit the viewers' appetite. In my opinion, Master Chow had made a breakthrough from his role of invincible protagonist to a supporting actor who died in the climax of the movie. The switch was brilliant in such a way touching the viewer's hearts from the saddest moments of the single parent family. An admirable technique which prevail upon the people to be convinced on the storyline. On the other hand, Emo Chou's film is quite breathtaking to the extent that the director added much of the elements of surprises into fragments of the show. Areas where we find it similiar to Kungfu Football by Master Chow few years back. Generally, it is still a good movie for the effects and the ending. Time travel 乾坤大挪移! Most importantly, featuring Jacky Wu at the beginning is such a hilarious move! This shall end my movie review :D...

Next up to my dearest study. The previous was indeed hard to last through. To skip trainings and get my pace of hectic studying back on track, did not make it's effect fast enough when i'm so coped up with other stuffs. Even then, i still need work hard from now although i'm serously tempted....

2008-01-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

I remembered vividly the times in the past when I'm so excited about school reopen. Then as it comes to the now, secondary 4, i guess i'm still inside my honeymoon world. A world that work is merely invisible but now, it's like the sky that covers over me, fully and stars been their eyes watching at me. Making sure that all the times are used properly without any games or leisure. Other than the lack lustre CIP at Woodlands, other times are just resting times i can have. For weekday are nothing but work and work. It's fun to enter a world of hell now i suppose during this year, this period. A right tone for us to get started or waking us up from our dreams which brought the slumpness in secondary 3. ( definitely not those hardcore book muggers ) In another way, my thoughts that hovered me, i suppose they knew things will be coming, coming into my 17 plus 358days of life. Despite the time, i still have another 22 days to to catch up for the lost and i know this Prelim 1 wont be some thing that can pass so easily. No! I bet half of us will fail to do so and thus, our alarms would be triggered into red alert signs all over. Are you been hardworking now? I truly doubt so since we had not experience the way those PRC scholars did to catch us up in half a year and get top in level.

Okay, no matter what it is now. Concentrate and focus.... No point to just escape and pass. i need more excellence in myself, less nagging from the family towards me in the next 359days as Juncen had really tried hard, therefore you just need patience.

The change in class would be fine for me because i know some of the teachers do not have the kind of classroom control which attracts the attention of the class into study mode.People are just cannot be bothered at times but the teachers need to find ways to help us. CONTROL US PLEASE! I promise if you can do that, our result will be at least one of the top first in the level and not top from the last.

I believe we are a class of excellence if we truly put our effort in for the anything. okay, time to sleep. NITEX!

2007-12-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

Getting back from movie <> nevertheless, a superb movie i think for it's story, the scenes and as well as the 4 protagonists. The emotions it he movie was showed well in my opinion by the director Peter Ho. Just love the US 40 millions in making this movie which it ended up a master piece. From the starting till the end, I'm always kept in suspense for the things happening next. It turned out well, not as bad as a 3 stars rating in the Yahoo viewers' review. hahaha... maybe i just love to see 3 super "man" acting and the brothers with a bond that never mend to be broken. Once broken, 3 shall die together to fulfill the bond. To me, this movie worth 5 stars!

2007-12-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

It seems bore to be in holidays which everyone thought holidays can be a time to rejuvenate and replenish your energy for the upcoming year of hectic. Yet what I see then is totally different for holidays merely increase my spending as well as the time i spent at home(doing nothing mostly). Just couldn't get myself down and really start with all the works need to be done before the year starts. What i can look forward to i guess should be the time when i realise holiday is ending and tons of homework untouched. Amazing indeed, but i could do not feel bad for myself. Too much things happened this year since the start.Although things were never going to change no matter how i curse and swear. Despite all the unhappiness, I survived this crap so I'm maturing at the moderate speed that keeps me up for the O's. Hopefully i get into the Junior College that i want but before that would be months of really hard work studying. I really cannot afford to be off for this examination.Just cant get my parents to pay more since they had been spending so much on me.
On the other hand, this year also bring an end to my great expectation and i suppose that experience taught to be get away from the thought of involving in a BGR. Once a hopeful thought might just be one-sided. Who knows what will the end be right? So get myself out till the day i find you telling me, " You found the right one" Dilemma and suspicion is all fake till you confess and the truth shall reveal to see you hid in the sadness. Dark yet you knew that it was you who brought yourselves into this trap. Nothing gained but experiences and lessons. That's why I'm getting over Qn Y, and i mean it. We are just in a different world that JUNCEN dun exist in yours.
Next up, back to training times, i know i hardly comment on this but just feeling bad over last training. I'm wrong at not clarifying the instruction which i should be doing then. My assumption caught me up me yet again. I do not know whether i live up to the things i wrote in the letter. In serious, I do care about my well being as well as others in the team. What i see is others not trying to get everyone together. The lessons Sec 3 learnt this year, i guess really woke up us from our dreamland and brought us together, even though we did not play in that legacy of 9 but i guess that time, we really get to know our friendships and built up to be such a strong one. Days we spent together having leisure, joking and pulling each others legs. I do have fun and get supports from one another. We are not individuals anymore but a team of friends and fighters who willing to put effort in to strive not only for ourselves or glory but for all, the team, everyone involved. The process we went through is harsh yet it means something to us. We might lost a championship, but we won the hearts and the willingness from everyone. As the road goes down, i do not know whether this spirit can continues? The generation broke down, in addition to the individualism occurring, ways to help is hard to find. i seriously hope improvements to come hopefully next year.
Or maybe good news for me to see my whole family gathering together for the first time ever since nine years ago when we had our reunion dinner. Years gone by, or i should be saying year after another, i just hope to see my family could come together and the dream shall be grant this Chinese new year. :)

2007-11-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

Here I'm back again, to revive you from the dead. I know it had been quite some time when this holidays had been such a trouble for me. haha... was thinking of changing the password for my laptop and then how could i ever forget it!!!! haha... lucky those i manage to get it reset from another admin account. Or else i wont be accessing this account or even blogging anymore. A sign for me to stop everything that's regarding computer or IT and focus back to my own studies now. Will that works for me? I know it's quite impossible to do so now as for i'm too in a holiday mode. Nothing can ever change my way of life unless the triggering point is reached. Till then, i will always be with you! :)

Today marks the departure of Ms Chow and my Aunt to overseas. Hah, such a coincidence right! The first is going Krabi via Bangkok for a vacation and i just hope she can really enjoy herself down there. Shop till she cry! haha... The latter one went back to Chn to visit her parents and her family. And i know it's snowing over there! OMG snowing leh! i never seen snow so far in my 17years 10 months of time. I'm just been envious of places with snowing! Sound so fun and all the things we can play with snow. A snowman! Snow fights! And must remember being a softballer i guess i can take a good advantage in snow fights! :D haha... but then, just a dream to look forward to. Things might not be as good as we had expected at time. I just wonder if the next generation were able to see these scenes if the global warming and everything that is damaging the earth still goes on. Who wants economy to go down for the sake of Earth? Being human, we are selfish for things that are abundant and threats not been seen instantaneously. Just accept the fact that one day the 2 glaciers will melt and cities will be flooded. Face it and we will know what to do then. At times money is not everything. I'm trying to remind myself as much as possible before the brain-wash when i enter the society. In times of great decisions. We need to choose one side between the dilemma.

Back to my life, and i realise I had been spending tons on bowling recently, fun yet expensive though! still going well with my slow and steady balls.. and pick myself up to continue the winning streak! hahaaaa....

2007-11-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

What can i say about my freaking basting neighbour where World War is occurring every day and night and i make sure you find no gap for you to really be in a state of silence. Playing fire crackers along the corridor is okay but please do not play outside other people's house. What the fuck you want to have fun and create so much disturbance to others. Inconsiderate people. BAST! BLOODY HELL! One day you and your family will FUCKING realise you are doing the wrong thing because you had just made one more person to prejudice against your! A house of inconsiderate people. Argh... I believe they are not not taught by their parents. The fact is their parents are these kind of people, what do you expect from their next generation. A batch of ill-mannered people.
Okay, let that end. I shall not be angry over it and revenge which will make me to be no difference from them.

Getting back here, I should have a good mood here blogging my daily events that giving me such a motivation to become better. (but just don't get blisters)

Was at LianHua Primary School this afternoon for CIP(community involvement programme). The final time going there for this year. And today was also the final of the Kids Athletic Competition. More than 17 teams were up for the challenge to become the overall champion for this competition. Without the participation of RGS, today was a bit bored without toast going around. And also seeing people with brain without common sense. 100 as study smart, 0 for street smart. hahahahah........ Just imagine..... and you foresee! :P

Recently i had started falling for stories.
Plain though she is, I love her and always will. It may seem impossible to accept that a police officer could actually be in love with a petty criminal, but I am. She may not be very attractive looking at first glance, but after getting to know her deeper, I found her to be adorable. The first time I met her, she was in deep trouble. A group of boys had her surrounded in the street and were about to attack her. I blew my whistle and ran forward. One look at my blue uniform and the boys took to their heels. They did not look back. Having no real interest in catching them, as I did not know if they had committed any crime, I returned to attend to the "victim".

She was standing there looking after the fleeing boys and she had a satisfied smile on her lips. I walked up and asked her if she was hurt. She shook her head, mumbled her thanks and began to walk away. I looked after her until she disappeared from my sight. "The smartest pickpocket in the street," said a voice.

I wheeled around and saw Officer Sandy smiling at me. "Why?" I asked.
"That girl that you were looking at just now," she said. Then she continued to tell me all about the girl. Her name was Vivian and she was 18 years old. She was a school dropout. She had to stop school at the age of 12 because she both her parents had been killed in an accident. She had to bring up her brother who was still in school. Everyone knew that she was a pickpocket but no one had been able to prove anything. In fact Sandy suspect that some of the officers actually left her alone because of pity. I was astounded and decided to investigate.

It took a week for me to confirm that everything Officer Sandy had told me was true. One more thing I found out was that Vivian's brother was in secondary school. I decided to do something about it. I began to follow Vivian. She had a kind heart and picked on only rich people. She even gave some of her loot to charity!

As I had expected, within a week I caught her in the act. It was in a supermarket and i saw her bumped "accidentally" into a gentleman, and took the opportunity to pick his pocket at the same time. Next minute my hand gripped hers. She turned to face me angrily and the next minute her anger turned to fear and then tears came streaming down her cheeks. She looked pathetic and i would never forget the look she gave me that day. "Return it!" i ordered coldly. She nodded vigorously and walked up to the gentleman and returned him his wallet, explaining that she had found it on the floor. I signalled to her and walked with her to the cafe. There i gave her a long lecture and warned her against any future crime. I told her to meet me the next day.

She did as i instructed her and I took her to a friend's company. I told him everything about her and he agreed to give her a chance to reform. I call on her frequently now; on the pretext of checking on her. So far she does not suspect that my interest in her is not all official. I have only one problem now: telling her how i really feel about her. They never taught us how in the Academy.

2007-11-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

As i know, life had never been smooth for me and that's why I'm always learning lessons. From school, to home, to friends and to relationships. Obstacles after another, from simple ones to those life killing task. What i been through sometimes cannot be described through words or any other symbols. 因为一切都在不言中...

That's why I'm telling a story here, for been bored....not just bored but thinking of you! Cloudy looked across at his rival. All the three nurses were around him. Something had to be done to make them look his way. With a deft "accidental" movement he knocked the kidney dish. With a loud clatter, the utensil fell to the floor. They had to look his way now and did. He pointed with pretended helpnessless at the floor. Cindy rushed over with a broad smile and picked it up for him. Then they all came over. He looked across at his rival. Their eyes met; Cloudy saw the dagger in Sunny's eyes and smiled in triumph. He had won again! After they left, he smiled and waved at Sunny again. His heart glowed. Victory was sweet.

4pm was visiting time. He looked around at all the ancient warriors and their visitors. As usual, Cloudy and he were the only ones without visitors. He decided he would fix that. He struggled to his feet. Painfully, step by step he hobbled to the bed at the far end. Mary's visitors would talk to him. Unlike everyone else, Mary always had visitors to spare. Not all of them could talk to Mary at the same time so some would talk to him. Of course they did. They asked about his health; his family; whether he had eaten and so on. He felt a glow of pride and looked across at his rival. Sunny could not walk; so he could not "borrow" visitors from other patients. Cloudy saw that he was pretending to read and chuckled to himself. Obviously Sunny was avoiding his eyes. Then he hobbled back to his bed, but not before passing Sunny and giving him a triumphant, gloating smile. Sunny turned away.

As usual Cloudy rose at dawn. It was a habit. Birds chirping always woke him up. He closed his eyes and prayed. He prayed that that day too would triumph over his rival. But something was bothering him. It was something nagging; something uncomfortable; something demanding to be addressed. It was about the rivalry. He tried to push the thoughts away but it pushed its way back in. Suddenly, it dawned on him. All this victories were empty. The care of the staffs was just drama. the enquiries by Mary's visitors was drama. They did not really care did they? In one big drama. Tears filled his eyes. He had sinned. He prayed to God for forgiveness. He decided he would put everything right later that morning; no, he would do it immediately. He looked across at Sunny's bed. The curtains were drawn. Obviously he was sleeping. He had to wait till later after all.

he smiled at his own cleverness. He had a plan. As soon as it was bright enough, he would walk over to Sunny's bed. He would be direct. He would smile at him. He would apologise for his hard-heartedness. Sunny would understand and apologise in return. They would then laugh heartily over their rivalry. They would become friends. After that they would not have to worry about seeking attention from the staffs or from other patient's visitors anymore. They would have each other. He wondered if Sunny played chess. He decided he probably did. He knew Sunny was intellectual. Did he not read the whole day? Everything would be alright. He smiled to himself again.

Then he saw a covered cart coming stealthily into the ward. He wondered whom it was for. he saw it being pushed straight to Sunny's bed. A feeling of emptiness gripped his heart as floods of tears streamed down his face.....

2007-11-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

I rushed this morning, worrying not able to catch up the never waiting MRT train. The swift paces i'm having give no chance for me to observe the tranquility and the solemnity the surrounding is feeding me...OMG...i'm always lacking, lacking the time and the interest to get myself calm down, put down my work, everything that i have off my hands. To sit down, feel the air, observe and analyse the differences of the commuters who are like me, rushing every day and night. If you ever ask them, why do you work so hard and always putting up a glum face, always focus on their task, endeavour. They will stand firmly and answered, I'm doing it all for my family and people that i love. I want to provide them the daily necessities and they will be happy. But but but, are they really happy? i do not know. 见仁见智....

Hectic days, as always. Once there was a person telling me, I wish i could be sick. I asked,"why?" He said, "It's tiring man! Maybe been sick is the only excuse we can give to escape from this!" I was wonder if all the things we did were useful? As in, for the purpose for some of us. Of course i cannot question whether it's right or wrong but getting ourselves so tired, staying out everyday just to get jobs done. Are we missing out things?

And one good news that i'm changing class next year! haha...hope it to be a place with good facilities and environment! Or else we will always be complaining, shouting and dulan-ing the school's system. Just noted that this year's arrangement for our programme actually failed when our sec 1s had totally absorbed nothing good but the devil side of us. Their results simply cannot compare to my time of 1-9. They suppose not able to as we top the whole level for that year. Even though i said they are not suppose to win, the result they obtained might not even compare to our average! haha.. that also showed how qiang the 1-9, 2005 was!

I had a chat with my friend recently regarding me. Yes, it's me! Been observant, he told me i had actually missed a lot of chances. Not one or two but at least more nearing to ten. Be specific, the chance of getting into a relationship. Ohya, actually i realised that as well but it's always too late to get things back. What is gone, I'm just unable to get back but i did not want to cry over this for i know I'm might not be ready for any of these. Getting myself involved, i might have the temporary happiness, eventually this kind of puppies love would not last. It's not philosophy but thoughts i have. They could be my consolations for slipping the opportunities, on the other hand, i might just have salvage myself from a trap. A emotional trap that held you so tightly, you would be grasping for the little amount of air.

Wait, let me stop here, will be back soon:D

2007-11-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

Other than tired what can I comment about this holidays? One of the most hectic days i ever had. Rushing over places getting things and appoinments completed! Eventful instead but draining energy off for more important things that had to be done.

I do not know whether am I right in the first place but I understand the circumstances of it. Cannot blame anyone else than myself for I'm the one choosing it. Loving it man! No excuse or nothing. Accepting is the only solution now. Fated to it i supposed. No chance of escaping anymore. My mum whispered to me, "Son, be strong. I have faith in you! You need to stand up on your own. Learn your lessons and I know you will be better than now. Even reaching a greater height!

2007-11-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to say but I'm down, sad, bored, stressed....... Why I just cannot get over things like this! Oh my god! I'm facing dilemma again.... The tug of war is bothering me ever since this had started! Argh....... Please give me some space, just a little bit space to take in some air that keeps me breathing.

Why did you stood there doing nothing and leaving me in lurch! You don't love me anymore? I yelled! I screamed! You did not move..... What i remembered vividly is your grim, that will always attracts my attention regardless what happened but now, it's gone! Gone forever.......

The life in me vaporises every second and minutes.....Hours till the death, I look up. There you are appearing in front of me with your signature smile. I reached out my hands, closer and closer. Just inches towards you. I jumped and hold onto you. The texture, the feel.....
It's nothing there..... but images or illusions are pulling your legs!
Fell to the knees, i know I'm just imagining all the time about the perfect world. It's impossible yet i cannot put myself to the fact. I'm trying the Great escape..... escape from the cruelty world....ruthless..... a world that is so practical that only money could keeps the world goes round and round.

It's time to face the music....Be a man and know what have to be done. Not for yourselves but others. People around you and people you care.

Little did i expect things to come out this way. I'm busy, always busy..... really sorry to miss you outings that makes me feel so guilty!

I need time, more time, time for me to reflect, to think, to find time for myself and get back to track. I know i cannot present myself well with my words for I'm not an articulate person but just give me time to show you I'm worth for you to love.

2007-10-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

Omg! after weeks, i'm finally back posting:D, as for what people say, we always cannot forget things that are left undone.
First month of holiday, doesn't seemed like a holiday at all when it is filled with trainings and events that could keep me occupied for at least 1 whole month and soon i would start going back to school for extra lessons and mugging for secondary 4 syllabus. Making up for this whole year of slackness in studies and spending too much time on the computer, dota-ing almost everyday. Although that improve my skill on IT, for all costs, it affects my studies to a huge scale.
Okay i admit i'm a computer addict! If you ask me to complete a assignment on hardcopy, or school assignment, the scene will always be me chionging the work at the last minute which applies to the examinations i'm going through. If the assignment is related to IT, you will see me in front of the computer until i get the best job out!
Other than geography, i swear that i screw all subjects! Worse, i did not manage to pull a gap in HCL with others as that's like necessary for me when i lose so much in EL.
With all the plans, 2008 is definitely going to be a tough and stress year for me in catching up with others, the feeling of getting average marks is seriously sucky, not merely in relationships and also mentally, when you know you can definitely perform better than the actual and it's like so much better. Even owning.... I'm supposed! One thing i can say proudly is My Lit finally, finally improve to an A! haha..... this result of mugging. A fact for all students who wanted to get higher marks...
This has been eventful year (not counting the results) with all the events and trips! Taman! We love you! Let's go trekking again! Been There Done That! hah....
Of coz i know the departure of a good friend to another country, sad for sure.... but i just wish all the best over there and get a GF! and and and, do not go over 85 pls! i will not recognise u!
Lastly, my favourite teacher is not following up to Secondary 4! :(
i still wanna try for a swensen's treat! waaa.............
Just hope she wont forget me, if she did, I KILL HER! hahahhahaaaa.....

Getting back to my topic of holidays!
My sis is out here now, hmm.... of coz we had become mature as years went by, each of us have different goals and different views of life, while so far we still getting well, helping out each other. What i can say is that " She is simply the Best!" and dun get on to my nerve can le!

2007-10-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

It marked an end to the End Of Year of 2007, Catholic High School Sec 3 Examination, and I'm feeling cool,:D. Just excited to see the fruits of my muggerness, I know I'm a mugger this time in paying back what i had been slacking for the last 3 terms. It's a hard lesson to learn, yet never too late to do so. I will always be sure of my targets and goals in school, making sure nothing goes into the way of mine in achieving for what i had been wanted to have. I'm desiring it since i have been owned or prawned by the rest of the class. Haha, maybe that's called motivation to me somehow, bring up the urge deep in my heart, telling me not to play, and my conscience that i should not be slacking and let everything slip through my hand. As it's clear to me, i can do well with my intelligence with muggerness. :P, With a bit of revision, i think i can be better than Alien de okay! I'm not boosting but i believe in myself, so that's self confidence :D Never underestimate a mugger who play so hard. Of course, this exam would not be so well done(hopefully) without the help of my friends, lending me notes and accompanying mugging at the library and fast food restaurant, If i did well this time, i wont forget to get your a drink! Promise k! And a bubble tea for Ms Chow! I wont forget that! And pray that my Addition Mathematics score higher than 75 and i will get a free treat to Swesens! Hahaha....

Just looking forward to the post exam activities that do not involve homeworks and Chinese especially. the intensive is damn stupid, although i guess that will help us to produce an A1, I'm just too bored over the 2 hours of lesson everyday on Chinese. I would rather listen to Physics which i should serious need to improve on.

It's 9 October, 5 more days to your birthday and i wont forget to get a present! As a return gift for your notes as well as a gift for my dear friend! :)

Oh ya, 2 more days to the arrival of my sister, hah, i will be the tutor for another person soon, but this time free of charge! I'm good okay! free tutoring is hard to find, and there is one in front of you, so you must cherish me! And you promise to love me forever like how much i love you. You will always have a place in my heart that you are the one, i care, concern.

here, i want to thank Ms chow, Cas (stinky), Ziao, Joel and Cheng howe who spent time muggering with me. Minron at the area above the grand stand, Wee for his help on my English Oral, Brian from 3-10 and wanyin for his super useful biology notes and last but no least, Weige(jingwei) for your geography notes. It help me alot! Thx all!

2007-10-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

Okay, dropping by just to say hello to bloggie and promise to be back after the EOY.

2007-09-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

As a soccer fan, i'm obviously astoned by the departure of Mourinho. This is quite ridiculous to ever let someone like him to leave the club which he had put in so much efforts. I'm sure the players are shocked, dumbfounded. For the first time i was frustrated for the management of Chelsea! IT SUCKS! and they will regret for their decision!

Adeus
Au revoir
Auf Wiedersehen
Arrivederci
Adiós

2007-09-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

back after the super duper hectic week which i find myself sleeping merely 6 hours per day and together with the tight training schedule for i suppose i'm trained to go up for the combine school selection next year and if i were to succeed, I would be happy to see you at Raffles junior college, Or else i might just ended up in Hwa Chong or some other schools that has a convenient transport. Okay, this is quite random here, i'm just rusty to blogging since it has been quite some time since i last blogged. Sian......People who blogs are sian ppl, and personally i agree to this theory. Other than blogging, my life is just school, training, eat, sleep, shop and sometimes going out with friends or tuition. I still dun get what it means by a meaningful life that u enjoy every since bits, thick and thin. What i always get, questions marks and question marks. So add up, more question marks for me to solve them individually. Tedious yet if one day i learn the gesist, i will be a happier person comparing to now. I'm definitely confirm and sure that, the Juncen 2 yrs ago is so much happier and indulging in everything he does. A life where pressure ,responsibilties ad burden are less, people will know to enjoy himself. But i know i wont, now. 2 mroe weeks, keep reminding myself the days are counting down and yet u had done so little. Am I not fufilling my job? Another question waiting to be answered. What i could assure myself, might just be the thoughts going through my head yet there's not much people who really understands me. I dun like to talk that much at times coz i'm thinking, i dun like to talk coz i'm afraid, afraid that i might uttered something wrong and the consequences are fatal. I dun like to talk coz it's just not my character to be out there entertaining or be a clown. My reaction would give u a cold look. The lessons in the past taught me to be more cautious, at the same time, it labelled some sterotype to some people. It's your own will whether to want to go on, what's underneath will never reveal if you dun even have a heart.

I know it's quite funny to be up there chionging the questions and eventually get a 2nd placing( shld be the 1st lor, thx to that lousy buzzer) for the mooncake festival quiz competition. It's lame! SERIOUSLY! but worth to mug 1 period for some popular vouchers right! :D
The attitude i gave the teachers during the briefing was like a problematic child in the child. Coz one of the teacher go up to my Chinese teacher to complaint about her Chinese rep! hahaha..... For that, i just replied, chey..... I jus disgusted by the chinese dept for giving us BAO ZHANG BAO DAO after another BAO ZHANG BAO DAO. Like what the..... You dun even give a chance for the students to choose what he wanted to do and force them to learn a language by MUGGING! -.-. NO! Never let the self centred fish scale get her mindset into us for her own benefits to achieve the standard he gave our boss in school. For the same nationality, i despise her.

What i cannot argue is that, humans are selfish. In all sense or else we wont be killing so much animals and plants, destroying natural habitats for the comfort of our own. Human advance in technology and liberty of thought, the conscience in them goes down the drain. ( even the drain is a kind of destroying the natural)

2007-09-10T19:00:00.000+08:00

Time flew past everytime when we wanted to cherish somethings that are important to us. There's nothing much things i wanted to say but "Friends 4eva!" and wish you all the best adapting to a new environment. Be socialable towards your new friends might be difficult at the beginning but 万事起头难，what you need most is courage to take your first step out!

I still remember the first time i meet you. Two strangers sharing a common class, i thought there's not much room, little did i expect the bond to be so strong. Maybe our backgrounds are similar or maybe somehow i got lucky that you dun mind my presence.

A picture speaks a thousand words, so just let it tell you that "you will always leave a great impression in my heart!"

Two left one, the competitor has gone, but i promised a good grade to shock you out of US!

2007-08-31T20:15:00.000+08:00

I'm quite happy today at least up till a certain extent for creating a smile on the teachers' face. Coz I wanna they to have a very Happy Teachers' Day.:D
Guess that's the only thing we could do to repay their patience, tolerance and understandings towards a bunch of monkeys! haha....Yes! we are playful yet we are also spontaneous and we do cooperate when the situation is suitable.
They are always the lighthouse that guide the ships into the harbour through the vast ocean. Their care and concern for us not only for academic but also about our personal life and problems we faced in school and outside school. I always find them a good listener and someone i can confide in. Of course that only goes to some of the teachers and i really love them!

I went to my Primary school. What i can say is that things had changed. Almost from the top to bottom other than the teaching squad. Even though i find a few of my ex-classmates, the ambience has completely changed from cosy to peaceful which i seriously cannot stand it. I'm so so sian, and was like stoning from the start to the end. Maybe the only glamour of that period was to be able to see her again after almost an year. She was as sweet as ever, brightening up my day for the instance. Although we do not have much contact nowadays, i do care and concern for you. For once a bond, it's a life inspiration! haha.

11 days to end the journey here, i wonder how you feel now? Is it same as mine? Worried and sensing the loneliness rounding the corner. i really do not know how to face it, but i just hope things will go well as time passes and there will be opportunity for reunion of the band of brothers in 3-11 2007!

2007-08-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

Cracking the dawn today with super high anxiety of the 7th HwaChong Sports Quiz and Sports Pursuit. After an memorable experience last year in quiz, i guess i'm not really fit for that event, hah! It's absolutely no question about it. I'm more suitable as a sports person than memorising all the facts and to know who is the CEO of SSC. :)

The competition did not start that well for we had our Mr Goh playing with an injured finger, seriously WTH lor! Today is our competition and he injured himself yesterday! -.-
Anyway, netball was still not our best sports but we did it quite average. We still managed to score a dozen goals and proceed to our next few stations. What i wanted to say is that these stations were simply not kick at all! 5 stations of full marks, it's like one of the stronghold to our champion in the event! Our weakest station was the sailing. Okay! Sailing. When u heard this station, you must be thinking about activities we would be doing related to sailing like canoeing or something like that. The answer was PowerPoint slides show. It's seriously difficult to catch up with the words on the slides as the slides only last for around 10 seconds before the next slide was been shown! Besides been exhausted completing all the other stations, our minds were jus too slow to catch up with the content showing. It's definitely brought us and all the other teams as well! haha, or else how do we win?
The most hilarious part was the new cheering station added that required us to perform a cheer for the Team Singapore. Of cos our quick wit was not just there for show but been proven useful in this kind of situations. We merely combined our school's Direction cheer together with the Fine cheer together and the result was one of the top 6 teams! OMGOMG! We never thought that could be something worth watching for It's SUPER SUCKY! hah!
Here we need to thank our dear Marshall that ran with us and bringing us to the stations with the shortest route, Hai Yun. We cant win this competition so easily without her help! :)

While back home was a land of dreams for I'm just too tired to do any other things than enjoying playing chess with JIANG GONG!

2007-08-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

well, just back here, bored, i guess and also to keep myself away from the suffocating air of the books which used to make me demoralised recently.
Home got to be the place where i can find my peace and tranquility to settle my mind, nonetheless, not on studies for the presence of u!
After settling several issues recently, the BIG stone in my heart had finally been smashed into pieces and i know what is my target for the time being, at least for now! :)
AT LEAST I CAN SAY "I'M OFF OF BIG PROBLEMS IN MY HEART! YEA!"
and got to thank you friend! No offence but u get my ideas clear from all the misunderstandings i have for u. It's quite one sided and i knew what u meant, apple tree never bear orange!
Anyway, i will always respect ur decision. It's also for the interest of urself and the interest of ur parents ba, I'm quite sure that no parents will like to see their child in that state!

Back to school, the work load i have recently can only be described by one word! "HORRIBLE"
Almost everyday is so hectic with work and troubling on helping my sister to find a good and reputable learning centre or academy. Since she find no interest in studying computer, accounts may be a good choice since the need of the area of professionals is still increasing. Hopefully, I will see my sister soon and having someone to cook for me everyday and not spending my meals on fast food. Despite the late hours but I'm still daydreaming! ahahahaa.......

2007-08-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

As I'm browsing through my friend's blog, i came across this sort of called poem, which i guess to be quite meaningful one!

so here it goes..

Nobody really knows what love is and whether it really exists.
But everyone still tries so hard to find it because it's the closest thing we have to magic.

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall.

Faith makes all things possible. Love makes them easy.

Love makes life so confusing, but without love would you really want to live?

Love me now, love me never, but if you love me, love me forever.

She taught me how to love, but not how to stop.

Love, true love, is that which can give the most without asking or demanding anything in return.

Love... What is love? Love is to love someone for who they are, who they were, and who they will be.

Love is like a river, always changing,but always finding you again somewhere down the road.

Love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart.

People need love even when they don't deserve it.

Maybe God put a few bad people in your life, so when the right one came along you'd be thankful.

Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you.

Never say goodbye when you still want to try.
Never give up when you still feel you can take it.
Never say you don't love a person when you can't let go.

Say I love you and mean it, don't just say it cause you can.

You call it madness, but I call it love.

If love is great, and there are no greater things, then what I feel for you must be the greatest.

Time is too slow for those who wait,
too swift for those who fear,
too long for those who grieve,
too short for those who rejoice,
but for those who love,
time is eternity.

Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.

Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.

Love me for a reason, let the reason be love.

2007-08-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

吾的心开着，等你的快乐来填满；
吾不曾要求过，你的一分付出；
吾不能想象，你的消失无踪；
但事实的残酷，只留下空旷的位子；
风说你不在了，地找不到足迹；
天为吾哭泣着，雷为吾呐喊；
瞬息万变，可吾只想问：“你还在吗？”

2007-07-24T16:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm, i'm suppose to be mugging my physics and Geog now for common tests week is on!
Omg, i just have this bad feeling for my chemistry and social studies! haha....shall not think too much now, and focus on the coming subjects!

Hey i saw u yesterday! with ur dad looking at the fruits in front of the salon! haha..... hmm..compare to last time, u were quite difficult to notice from far now! Did u put on weight? :P
i wonder...... but u still have the healthy kinda of look! not bad ah! know how to maintain good health!! lastly, ur smile is always that sweet! hahaa....

I guess other than that encounter, i receive my answer that i have been waiting! At least i am clear of what my position is :D, as always, ur decision will be respected! nevertheless, we will always be the kind rs you wanted for! :) these few months actually gave me lots of time to reflect and actually i am not very shock of your ans! You have ur goal to meet and i have mine, guess that's one of the reasons why, parrallel lines do not meet even when coordinates are given! :D

Okay, now for stinky! I promise to write one essay per week and marked by you! I will do it okay! and you jus be prepared to mark my holy work! :D beside criticising, i also want compliments k!

I shall treat this post as a free writing for the day, for what i had said are things in my mind!

LASTlY! WB STOP SLACKING LA PLS! DO SOME WORK! GIVE THE TEACHERS SOME GOOD MEMORIES!

2007-07-12T19:55:00.000+08:00

Finally, O level 's oral is OVER!!!!

Yea.... I can sort of put that heavy burden down for a while, indulging myself in other stuffs after i complete my Physics project! Rawr! Lucky the Social Studies Project is done yesterday, or else i will be screaming today!

Anyway, the oral today was quite well done, I hope! reading part was abit screwed for i was SO NERVOUS for goodness sake! During the conversation, I'm totally a noob at the start but soon i was able to get back into the right track! With the fluency of my language, the marker actually change my mark for the conversation!( If i'm not wrong!) haha.....

Now i felt that having examinations in hall is seriously weird for the ambience as well as the temperature! It's so cold! i was like shivering from the start to the end, couldn't even spare a thought on what to say to the examiners! Maybe i need to gain some weight to increase my fat layer underneath the skin!

I guess after all the mugging for the past weeks, hopefully all the tests i took could show my some results, coz i dun really want to see my efforts were all in vain! It's would so depressing and distress for me! I dun want to get the results that i had for the semester one, that's a form of disgrace for me to have such a lousy grade and lousy standing in the class. Hence i had to mug to get back the what i should be like! yea!

Lastly thanks to those people who gave me the support and help me to go through all these obstacles!

2007-07-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

It seemed that my posting routine had just became a weekly basis!
I guessed I'm just lazy, no time to come to the blogger and make so many amendment to the blog!
But but, i can announce to the world that i had started mugging in school! and the mug only apply to school! haha...I'm still a super slacker at home...maybe that's why mum always nagged at me for staring at the computer once i reached home till i sleep!
Tsk tsk tsk....lazy me....*slap * slap*, may that wake me up hopefully!
Well this morning, is simply, unbearable! i merely walk around the house, a simple job of going toilet was such a long route! I could feel my muscles telling me that, THEY WERE OVERWORKED after 4months sleeping! OMG! i'm simply a corpse man! a movement simply triggered my agonising pain in my body! abs, thighs, arms, shoulders! this is worse than my first training......
Anyway, it's 07/07/07 today, so i guess it's some neutral to me but i know it's a day that we need to be conscious of! Live Earth! CHMA(catholic high music award), the starting of nEBO and a concert too at RGS! That's what i remembered for today! Despite an eventful day ahead, i merely felt the excitement( coz my muscle aches are killing me!!!!!!!!) :(
Done my shopping yesterday, think i can take part in those competition of been a good houseperson and at the same time, studying!
There's still a long day ahead, be positive and hope things will go well! for i know, it will!

2007-07-01T19:44:00.000+08:00

30 days, the darkness filled the times but i feeling it, thoroughly........
It's engulfing me inside out, the memories left were ever lasting......
I dun noe why i felt this way, maybe a characteristics of me facing things vanishing,
perished from this earth and yet I still wishing them to stay, stay to give me a chance to cherish them, spending more time with.......
After the fun fair on Sat, i was thinking, leisure is not everything on earth but there are some others which are actually more important.
For me, i preferred to be alone at times, when no one is around, i enjoy the silence, the silence that i know comforts my heart, healing me....
There are so many situations, people, issues, obstacles and difficulties i had been through,
i know I'm missing you..Missing you....I'm calling out from the innermost, deepest feelings in my heart, to you. It seemed so far, yet within touch.
I dare not, dare not to even move my hands forward, I'm afraid of the consequences, a result that never want to see now.

2007-06-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

人生的旅程；
一道坎坷不易之路；
充满色彩，充满困难，
但他却选了坚毅的后者；
使然，一生充满缤纷，不予几，
获之受益者们心中那份敬意；
为国，为民，为家，他已遗无所有。
带着沉静，带着执著，带着他那和蔼的威严，
驾鹤仙归.......
我不哭，因我知他不会想看此景；
但我不会忘记从小在他怀抱下成长的每一天，
总是把一生最好留给我们的每份记忆；
珍惜，为何人总是在失去后才认识到它的重要，
才懂得如何珍惜？
那时，我见到一个铁娘子坚强后的眼泪，
心碎了，彷徨中流露出痛苦，后悔。
只是，他的血将在我心中永永远远流着.......

2007-06-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

It's almost 1 am in the morning and what the hell am I still here posting, updating my blog.zzzzz...yawnz...so sleepy but yet i find quite meaningless to sleep now.......so must well make good use of the time posting another day about me going to church name Revival Nation.

Hmm...my general impression is the church people are friendly-"definitely"( or else how they attract more ppl to come and visit them regularly for service)
But what i'm impressed by this church which differs them from the waikuong's, was the whole setting and environment of the "church".
The Revival Nation church was small in scale in terms of the place, but they do have a lot devoted believers for Christianity. They really put their heart and soul into the church for what they believed which i need to respect no matter what religion i'm having.
So it all started early in the morning when i'm startled up, worried i might be late for the service, (erm...of coz i tried to reject chenxi's invitation, but u noe la, gal leh, how u win them in arguing, haiz...)
As a new-comer to the church, the treatment from the old Christians from the Revival Nation to another Chenxi's friend and me were almost the same as other churches that i had attended just that it's quite usual for me and know how to reject the invitations of the callings the pastors gave.
What i didn't imagine through today's activity was that the pastor for the Revival Nation was so young and updated! (coz you noe what my impressions of pastors are those old fashion people who dun really know nut about teenagers and dun even expect them to know what activities youth would do during leisure time! And she knew about DOTA!haha.....)
The singing part of the church was seriously high! I mean like they really looked like having tons and tons of excitement in them though that did not attracted me much so as Chenxi's friend for he is a Buddhist! haha...i also dun expect new-comer to a church and also being a non-christian could be enthusiastic about what the others were singing.
In the end, as what i had expected, Chenxi's friend and I, simply stoned there for around 2hours and just could not wait to get out of the cosy room. For the music they having, i could not really take it. It's not for the lyrics but the volume of the speakers blasting my dear ear drums apart!!!! I could not imagine how that person who stood right in front of the speaker last the 2 hours and yet be so enthusiastic.
Actually both of us had a clear mission that is to watch red rain's concert, it's also what our initial motive of going to Kallang MRT. You see, when i saw Chenxi's church friend came up to me, i knew and quite sure---i'm been cheated! A service had yet to be a good experience to me in a new church! yea! I'm just quite okay with waikuong's one as there, not as pressurized what i had experienced in the Revival Nation. I'm not saying that church is no good, but i guess not really suitable for people like me! I'm quite a stoner, not much things can really make me excited(other than watching WCG DOTA finals!)...hehe.....for someone like me, i preferred a quite place where i could sit down(of coz, standing for too long will make my back ache!), close my eyes and feel the ambience around. Tranquil is what i needed and not for all the devotions acquired by Christianity. I guess it's something that my parents had influenced me since young.
After the service, we proceed to the Singapore Post centre where the concert was held, i was actually quite shock to know that the whole place was booked by the Heart of God church and they will take that venue as their church! Seriously, u need to know how BIG it is and why i can get so shocked!
And as usual, i saw familiar people over there, erm..quite zzzzz...coz feel weird ah....or maybe i'm shy? maybe ba...
We had 1 band and a dance group performing before the Red Rain's arrival and also they sang some better known songs that atmosphere rising!

I guessed i got quite high too during the concert even though i only JUMP for a few times after the influence by the church people.
The jumping part was disastrous for it just made my old injuries and pains relapse...zzzzz..
I'm getting tired now----yea finally..so i just cut my long story short
~after the concert had ended, Chenxi's friend and I zao asap!

2007-06-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

A good day? Or a bad day? I guess neither the first nor the latter one. What i gotten today, there's nothing i wanted to remember and get it into the brain. It's simply not the memory i wanted to have.

朋友易找，知己难求，
此言的确有它的更深的意义。
现在在了解之时，
心也不时地颤抖着;
总希望时光能倒流。
所谓问世间有多少人能体会？
我不能回答，但我知道;
身不由己的时候。
就算知道世上有无不散之宴席，
心中总有一分感慨。
回忆起的想当年；
历历在目的影像；
你我的争霸；
巧克力事件；
我们是好兄弟，至此，直到永远。
我不会伤心，因你心中有我，
那将是我前进动力之源。

2007-06-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

06 of June,

A day of rest always as continued from the past 1 week. There are tons and tons homeworks waiting for me to open and see their anticipated faces and yet i'm just too lazy to even give a look at them, but but but i did finish some works that needed to be done! Yea....this shows i'm not that cant be bothered kind of people! haha....

Till now, i guess i detested this holidays as i gained nothing so far from anything i done. The lifeless life that i had now......the only word to describe~~~~~~sian~~~~~
but i know this will change very soon as i'm going back to woodlands library to contribute my CIP hours over there! yea! at least it's better than staying home or going out to spend my precious money away! haha.....Holidays had hardly a real holiday to me.....With tons of stuffs and my own laziness to chiong my homework on that last week of the holidays.i'm sick and tired of all these! Sis...i need you to be here to take care of me! i miss you so much!:(......
Pls finished your exam and be here to guide me through this difficulties...be my light at the end of the tunnel. be the lighthouse that guide the lost ship in the magnificent sea.

I'm wondering wondering wondering.........

2007-06-01T12:19:00.000+08:00

Jolting down the memories;

Unleashing the feelings, sensations;

Now, life had been so dull that i

Conceding defeat to the fate;

Enhancing the shortage of a dying man;

Never let any emotions be exposed.......

&

Great

Love

Occurred

Repeatedly

In

Ancient

2007-05-31T20:22:00.000+08:00

here i'm back again with my second post for the camp that we had from 26th to 29th May at Taman Negara,Msia.

Well, i woke up pretty early that day and got to realise that it rained the night before and again my legs were wet.:( as they were leaning to the tent. Despite the stuffy night around 9pm, the weather changed seriously faster than i expected it to be. Haiz...the weather just dun stand to our side or my side and in addition i got to sleep with that Dirty Alien....zzzzz...

After washed up, we made our way to the cafe as usual to have our breakfast and at the same time, prepare ourselves for the incoming 52km cycle. But but but, before that we indeed had alot of entertainments like

It's really funny and cools the tension ambience in the cafe....hahah.....our class simply ROX!!

Our class then again separate into 2 groups this time and board 2 bus which brought all of us to somewhere near a beach. The bus ride was long and most of us managed to get a power nap before we reached our destination. We were gathered at the beach for a briefing before lining up to get a helmet each and ready to set off once Mr Goh gave us the signal. I was fast enough to kope a GT bike, which i guessed might be a better bike among other bikes the organisers had. As jumped up the seat, I'm ready to go.....

We had quite a good starting as no one had any break down of the bike in term of the chains or any other parts of bicycle. The first route was estimated 12km, it was tiring and those who dun really cycle that well, suffered a lot...Me as an amateur cyclist, the route was okay not for the pain started in my ass. haha......We cycled passed forests, farms and houses too, the scenes were beautiful except for the deforestation occurred there. Being jokers in the level, all of us waved to the people that we cycled passed and hoped to see them waving back so as to achieve our target! it's super lame but fun! Yea....

a photo of ziao, in the middle of the road as we stopped over to have a drink. Jus love his helmet! :P

Our first stop was a enclosure beside a big house. Everyone stopped over lining our bikes to a side. A small bread was given and a toilet break too.(er, for toilet breaks, we merely find some place remote and that's our toilet!I think girls might had a hard time finding one. haha)
There was a small shop selling tidbits and drinks, i guess they had predicted our arrival and prepared lots of isotonic drinks which most of us bought it to quench our thirst as well replenishing the loss of salt through perspiration.

We had our lunch at the second stop beside a wooden house, under a tree. There, a pack of food was distributed to each and everyone of us together with an apple! haha......After finishing the food, i managed to "steal" a few more apples for myself......coz an apple a day, keeps doctors away, more apples, no doctors at all.:P

Actually during the second parts of the journey,minor accidents and injuries like cramps, abrasions came in. For our class, the victim was someone u seriously dun expect to be, MELVIN! Omg.....but he was able to complete till the end of the second part.

Melvin behind me

A briefing ends my Mr goh again marks the start of third part of the journey and also the starting of multiple up and down slopes. This part, we had a lot of difficulties overcoming up slopes but having fun for the down slopes(but must be careful of the speed of the front raider)
This section, i was totally exhausted and sad to see some main stream people started loading up the life-saving buses.( i'm sad becoz they look perfectly alright lor) Also, our good Melvin started to have multiple cramps, soon he became the last guy in the cycling group.
I did not see him till at the 3rd stop when everyone cycled back and all of us were excited to see Melvin's appearance which i think had that scene had disappointed our class. Melvin and Wenbo came down from the bus with a moody face. We can expected any other people in our class to give up other than Melvin, coz he always had the never say die mentality, in class and also in sports.

The whole cycling journey ended with a super up slope where 98% of all the cyclist on that day came down and pushed the bike up. hmm.....for this, I'm quite proud of our class as the 2% of those who never push their bike up came from our class! hahaha...yea....that's the Sports Class Spirit!

2007-05-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

After 4 days in another foreign land of adventures and excitements, i'm back to my warmth and comfort home.

I learnt alot and gain loads of experiences through these 4 days of activities and at times some daily routines that carried out by ourselves like eating, showering and sleeping.

On the first day, i was fortunate enough to have one of my best friend, wenbo , giving me a ride to the school at around 5 am plus. really need to thank him as that minimizes my effort to take train and crumpling with my big backpack. We gathered at the primary school hall to have our attendance taken and distribution of passports individually. Next to filled up a malaysia arrival and departure card. after much procedures and everything, around 7.30am, we boarded the bus and ready to set off for the causeway! "TAMAN, WR ARE COMING!"

Our class was divided into 3 groups, 1E,1F and 1G. I'm in the last group, unfortunately and our leader was that freaking, Bas Alien whom i would write a special post on this freak of the camp.
As we passed the custom, we change into another bus which would take our the Kuala Tahan, a resort inside Taman Negara and of course we are not that lucky enough to stay in the resort but some stuffy tents.

We reached our destination around 7pm in the night after approximately 10 hours of bus ride from S'pore to Pahang, Msia.The sky dimmed down soon after 7pm and all of most took out our torches in preventing us falling into paddles of muddy water. As we proceeded down the stairs to the riverside where our tents were located, we spread into our tents groups, settling our belongings into the tents and made our way to the nearby floating restaurant. Here, I'm quite frustrated with my freaking tent group, Ziwei and Zixiang(Alien). One being so irritating, another irritating and selfish. I think even Matthias could sacrifice more than any of the two.(just that i dun like his luggage!)

We had quite a sumptuous dinner that night in the Wan's restaurant, and most of us had our plates full to provide sufficient energy needed for next day's trekking trail down the rainforest.

As we waited for our food to come, this was wat we did to entertain ourselves. Before we went back t0 the tents, a briefing was conducted by the guides at LBK cafe.

The first night was quite disastrous, as accompanied by the rain, the temperature of our campsite was freezing cold and in addition to my HG group. If not for my tiredness through the ride, i guessed i would not be even sleeping at all. I felt it to be quite unbearable to have someone putting up his feet towards you in the night. Last of all, i had a dream, should be a nightmare that startled me out of my tent in the morning around 5.30am.

I guessed that nightmare was quite useful in the sense that i got to use the empty toilet myself to have a good clean up in preparing for the long trekking coming up right after our breakfast.

We set off as groups in boat to a nearby forest, which was not the start of trekking but part of sight viewing on the "walk in the canopy". To me, this was one of the most most exciting, thrilling activities through out the whole trip itself as we made our first step on the plank, there was no way back, to fear or to enjoy it's on depending on urself. I think the scenarios simply ROX! So fun walking through the canopy in such a height.

We headed back to the beach soon after that and departed for our starting point of our trekking trail. Our boats passed through the rapids with water splashing into us and the only way was to use our life jackets shielding us....haha...maybe that was one of the purposes of a Life jacket!

Around 10 min on the boat, we arrived at the small jetty, deserted with ruins , fallen houses and old lampposts. The place had nothing but natural vegetation and Leeches!( a worm-like creature, with a suckle at each end of it's body, bisexual, split into 2 when had it's body cut off)
The first part of the trail, we walked quite slowly so as to let everyone keeping up with the leading ones in the front, trees after tress we dodged, trunks after trunks we climbed over, thorns after thorns we watched out but most of us were not so fortunate enough to hide from the attack of the leeches and some of us either had our shoes damaged or totally beyond recognition. The muddy paths, the streams and rivers might had basically "ate" our shoes away one by one. Trekking in the rainforest, under such a humid environment, sufficient of water was necessary but at the same time, that also gave us the burden of carrying them throughout the trail itself. A good experience we had was having our lunch in the rainforest with lots of small companions crawling below us. They were also busying finding targets to put their suckers into our juicy flesh to enjoy a sumptuous lunch too.

We had fun, walking together, we had fun crossing the river, crossing streams after another. Helping each other out through slopes no matter it's going up or going down. Building a strong bond in the class. Although there were some miscommunication reaching the end, generally, this trekking was fruitful and of course VERY TIRING, and EXHAUSTING!!!

I will continuing posting other activities soon, now, i just wanted to comment on this person, the Alien in our class.

He is so fucked up.
He is so Kiasu.
He is so irritating.
He is so big headed.
He is so selfish.
He is so cunning.
He is so self-centered.
He is so dirty.
He is so inconsiderate.
He basically, simply made others detest him to the core.
What i wanted to say to him is

"chien égoïste, vous êtes un certain bâtard qui est ainsi baiser inconsidéré "
"egoistischer Hund, bist du irgendein bastard, der so das Bumsen unüberlegt ist "
"cane egoista, siete un certo bastardo che è così scopare inconsiderate "
"利己的な犬、そう軽率な性交粗悪品である"
"cão selfish, você é algum bastardo que é assim foder inconsiderate "
"эгоистических собаку, вы ублюдок, который некоторые так спятят невнимательность "
"perro egoísta, eres algún bastardo que es tan el coger desconsiderado "
"انانيه الكلب وانت من بعض bastard ذلك fucking يبالوا "
"이기적인 개, 당신은 이렇게 사려가 없는 성교인 어떤 잡종이다 "

2007-05-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

Life is not always living for one self as the world dun always revolves around you.
At times, i find myself very stupid, so dumb to get myself involved in something that is complicated in extreme, hardly anyone can resolve in one form another. And now, i'm fall into it for some reason even cannot be explain by myself. Things are indeed more superficial than it thought to be like.

A lesson learnt......Why some people can be successful, some cannot.
Why some people focus so much on themselves, some willing to sacrifice.
Why some people choose to remain silence even when there are chance to explain.
Why some people forever waiting for others to take initiative.
Why at times people are so selfish.
Why people are so stubborn.
Why life to some people are so pressurizing and unbearable.
Why some people always cannot be contented.
Why some people always want to compare with the others.
Why a helping hand is so difficult to borrow.
Why things are so complicated.
Why some people are stupid and dumb enough to jump for others.
Why? Why?
Why? Why?
Why? Why?
Why? Why? Why?
Why? Why?Why? Why?
Why? Why? Why? Why?
Why? Why?

2007-05-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

It had been so so hectic these few days with all the homeworks together with HCL and Chemistry stuffs! It's really not easy to be the rep for 2 subjects and especially during end of semester. Lots of collection of files which alot of them did not even care or bother to find/ dig them out from their piles of assessments. While those who handed up, the best news for me, and cut down the time for me to chase after them(nowadays, i dun really bother to chase after them). Merely deducting their marks from the overall might just be the only solution to this phenomenon. Another trouble was HCL, money collection to pay for the worksheets and some freaking books that mend to be our holidays homework. WHY WE MUST PAY TO DO WORK! OMG! Chinese had became a mugging subject through this kind of stupid system brought in by that bitch+slut of the year!

At times you felt bad been cheated but i guessed you would feel like killing someone when you realised to have waste 2 hours for 2 times and ended up with nothing!

That HCL listening and Oral was fake! NOT COUNTED! oh fucking man! She cheated us, all of us for our effort and time. Wasted our body's production of adrenaline during the conversation. Gotta seriously be independent on ourselves from now on the Paper 1 and 2, not that oral and listening anymore. We are not going to be cheated for the 3rd time!

Oh ya, our class stall for the fun fair is dunking pool and yesterday, i went up to Ah Su. For being the "best" and "most popular" teacher among the students as well as the teachers, i requested her to help us by being dunking in order to raise more fund.

She reaction was like," 什么？什么？你不要骗我！你们找我一定不是什么好事！"

I look at her, pretending to be very friendly towards her sarcastism. "老师，只有最受欢迎的老师我们才回去问，你能不能帮帮我们，为我们班筹点款项？"

Then i heard the most lousy and cheapo answer from a teacher in my sec sch life so far.

she said,"不要不要，不过我可以帮你们煮东西拿来买！"

I was dumbfounded inside, still pretending to be friendly outside hoping for a chance that she will agree in being dunk.

"老师，我们班的项目是dunking pool, 拿你煮的东西卖，有谁肯来看，肯来买？"

then she slowly, walked and deny my requested, i tried to follow and she uses her ulti! brought out her teacher in high school and intro to me!

I'm seriously is like -.-" -.-"-.-" -.-"-.-" -.-"

i dun mind you donate money than donating your culinary skill to us! we are not interested in what you cook!

last night, i received a call. A call that gave us( the sec3 softballers) a lifeline to get back to the team again. After chatting with her, i considered quite thoroughly about the situation. i think i could not be too selfish about aborting my mission in this class and to give a chance for the others who were interested in contributing their strength to the school as well as the programme itself. Therefore, i decided to try, first to help them and also me in getting out of this routine of sch,home,sch home, rhythmic system that occurred for the past 3 months!

This afternoon, after school, as everyone started leaving the class and i was sitting on my seat completing my bio homework that mend to be handed up today. As been the last week and also my week of duty, i was like waiting for everyone to leave for me to start cleaning. Then, the trouble started as Ziwei and Yeong started cleaning, the fucking alien was like slowly packing his bag. This fucking slacker, i can tell had done nothing for 3 days other than his way of arranging the tables and chairs by merely pushing them into original places. While others were all doing duty, i was still doing my homework, that fucking alien started moaning about me slacking the past 3 days doing nothing.

WEV PLS LA! I SWEEP THE FLOOR FOR CONSECUTIVELY 3 DAYS UNLIKE SOME FUCKING IDIOT WHO ONLY KNOW HOW TO PUSH IN TABLES AND CHAIRS! STOP ALL YOUR COMPLAINS AND PUT UR WORDS INTO ACTIONS FOR GOD SAKE BUT FOR YOU, IT'S FOR MAPLE SAKE! GO CHIONG YOUR CB MAPLE. LVL 100 QIANG LA.

I also realised that it's him who thrown my table and chair to the side. This seriously bring the devil out of me but it seemed our chairman was more angry and anguish than me. What he did after that alien left was to let his table had a chance to experience flying in the air and a shower by alien's water! haha...so nice! seeing alien UFO! hahahahahaha........wonder how he will react tmr!

2007-05-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

this is second post of the day, here just because i'm bored and so irritated with my right eyelid for blinking due to dun noe what reason for consecutively a week and it seemed not stopping....ARGH!!!! Shall just consult a doc soon to have a full check up.....

Quite an unpleasant day, waking up on the wrong side of the bed. Been irritated by that blinking eyelid for whole night. Practically, i looked like some corpse walking, with only that combed hair giving me the recognition as living human. This is totally sucky for not concentrating for all lessons and almost get murdered by that freaking Bio quiz on heart! I dun know a shit about that. I'm already on HOLIDAYS MOOD for goodness sake, cant imagine me sitting down and study for the next chapter, do you? Luckily, my Bio teacher is kind enough to let us open the book and copy the correct while she still sarcastically doubt our abilities and said with a super high pitch tone," even though your guys open your books! But there will be some people still getting the questions wrong!" See how sarcastic she is! No wonder even her name is an ambigram!

Recently, lessons had been quite fun, in the sense that every teacher understands us so well that they actually cut short their teaching time and allow us to have movie time then. It's like movie after another. Really like a marathon though but it's never ending! I guess it's also a time for us to catch up with the movies that we missed last time! I had to say, our teachers basically rox for knowing us so well!

It's 3 days from our camp at Taman Negara! I'm so so so so excited over it as that marks an end to a long semester and also a start of a month's holiday! Guess it's also a time for me to start pulling up my socks and pay off for the time wastage these few months on computer. For now, i'm jus looking forward to 26th may to come and 25th May when we camp in school(still thinking where we shld sleep at).*haha..

2007-05-21T09:36:00.000+08:00

okay, we had been Punk'd on Sat! Almost half the class were waiting at Blk 288 waiting till a strange uncle, i guess shld be the RC ppl, came to us and warn us not to play around that area, but the truth was we were not playing at all and we were supposed to be having our CIP from 7.30am to 10.30am as road Marshall! It's until one of my classmates called Ms Chia then we knew that it's on Sunday! Not Saturday! OH GOSH! I had forced myself out from the bed trying to do something that involved the community and ended up with nothing but time wasted waiting. ( hmmm....i would rather stay home and sleep in if i knew that event was on Sunday!)

It's a Saturday for goodness sake! For having a kind heart, i shall forgive Ms Chia. Never bother a person who is going to marry in a month's time! She should be filled with blessings but not worries from us and troubling her to solve our problems.

After waiting and waiting, most of the classmates either went back home or follow us to the nearby street soccer court for some friendly matches with Xuande's soccer ball( tatter and torn) but we indeed had loads of joy with it.

That afternoon was tiring going to J8 for arcade. I was so fascinated by the basketball game to manage a 84 points in 2 minutes! yea! not bad huh! IT"S SO MUCH BETTER THAN WAGAN!!!!! YES! coz it needs technique to get the ball into the net! not drifting! and not 2dollars for a game! As a victim of arcade gaming, i seriously understand the harmfulness of addicting to these games as they not only waste your money, time and effort, the most important thing is that it let you feel emptiness within for what you strive for long time is something virtual. Nothing is gained from it other than what so call "fun"!

2007-05-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

Once was bad, but the second time wasn't that bad after all since the Soo Xia Jiao said to me, " hmm....表达不错，只是需要多一些对对话内容的规划！

i think that's not bad, at least it gave me some hope that i could attain my 54/60 from the oral and listening components! eventually pull up my pathetic higher Chinese marks from a 69 to a A1, for that i might get a even better result for my this Mid yr's L1R5,

L1(if)=1, maths =1, Geog= 1, Chem=2,Bio=2, Elective = 3. so a total 1+1+1+2+2+3=10

i guessed with the help from teachers, which indeed help us to pull the grades by quite a lot though! All in all, i still think that i did super duper badly this term with such a super low average mark i ever attain in CHS since sec 1.

anyway, we will be having our CIP at tmr, as road Marshall helping the RC over at Bishan district in their some kinda of run held at blk 288. Should not be some tiring job right? Maybe only waving hands and pointing directions with a luminous vest on me! "errr.... this way guys, keep in track, follow the person in front of you!" haha....guess this would be repeated umpteen times tomorrow. Together with my friends, i just hope, it would not be a boring CIP session or i would say outing as a class.

2007-05-16T10:24:00.000+08:00

Another day in the com lab, for geog lesson and today is on coniferous forest in the temperate climates at the Northern Hemisphere and not South Hemisphere as there are no land between 60 degree and 70 degree South of the Equator....

Well, i met her Yesterday, been so so so coincidence at the MRT station. While walking passed the Customer Service centre, my attention suddenly was attracted to a familiar person coming down from the escalator. She had super duper glum face and i could feel the "darkness" (黑脸）aura from far. (See how "strong" is her)

So i fasten my pace and caught up with her. initially, she didn't realise my presence BESIDE her, so i made a gesture*cough* which gave her a shock but her next action worries me though...Hardly see her in such state. That reminds me of the post exam period her had and i guessed she might jus had her results back, obviously i'm right!

" I'm very sad okie!" (与她那无神的双眼）
i just cannot imagine that scene......

I had to admit, like her, i had did quite badly for this Mid Year. With such a low average, shame on name of triple sciences student. Maybe i just dun fit to be one.....haiz.....

Although i was sad(indeed super distress), i realised what i had done for the past 6months, had resulted this failure now(种什么因，得什么果）. It's time for reflections and soul searching, to get the mistakes cleared, learn this lesson, get back to the track again.

Life is a learning journey filled with obstacles, and it's also with these obstacles that made us stronger, tougher and give the thrust to strive for our dreams. These obstacles is inevitable. It is how we look at them. From different angles, the views are different, by ability to do this will making us a better person. Someone who knows what he need and what had to be done in order to reach the goal!

2007-05-15T09:34:00.000+08:00

ahuh....now, i in the com lab having my geog lesson which is sort of half free lesson, and that's why i'm here to post.

gotten my bio back yesterday, what i want to say is "OMG!"
as a subject which i felt to flunk and even worse, to fail. Now i PASSED! wasn't as bad as i had thought it to be, shld be a huge huge relief for me so as not to bring up my L1R5.

so far, my counted point is L1 = 2 (if i can get 2 more marks from my paper) R5 = 1 + 1 + 2 + 2 + 3 , so a total of 11 point, * the best scenario to have* and also wat i prayed to get so as to comfort me from this term's lousy average results!

okay, lesson over liao, gtg.....

2007-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

人总是在最彷徨无助的时候，才想起自己一直以来的错误和弱点，但每次我们在状况过后，在那埋怨，但“早知今日，何必当初”。

我想这种事后孔明之举实在是不可为之，他的存在便是祸害，但同时，他也是种让人反省的好事吧！矛盾啊........人生之路，一条学习之路，在痛苦之中，以所谓的笑看人生，只有这种理念才可能屹立不到。

孔有云，知之为知之，不知为不知，是知也。

如蒙其下，我不能游戏人间，是重担以兼扛，而不知从何下手。

2007-05-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

Ugly Thursday, A day of unhappiness ,:(:(

we had our results back today, which for the first time we checked our papers in the hall, air-conditioned! the only nice things among the events throughout the entire day!

First paper, English! Filled with mishaps! haha....indeed....the whole level did it quite badly and as a person who is not strong in English, definitely suffered more than those Self-claimed English Man. 20/50......on the first peep, i told myself, "GONE!"......in my expectation, i mistook the meaning of knocking wood! together with ZiAo, we are the failing partners! wuahaha......well, look at the positive side, i still have 5 marks in pending if Ms Tan is lenient enough to be a female Santa! i suppose she will not....T.T

After 1.4 hours of torment from my weakest subject, we continued with the Maths. I was keeping my fingers crossed, hoping for the bless of god that i would do well in this and hopeful a swensen treat from Chow Chow.....Then I ended up in despair and ANGER with myself! Losing marks was absolutely fine with me as everyone does lose marks, but I'm just pissed with myself losing more than 10+ marks on Carelessness. There was a sudden surge of digging a hole to cover myself up from the reality! so cruel! Ugliness filled! I'm just too shameful to face Ms Chow, disappointing her. haiz..........It was seriously NOOB to get 80/100 overall.

The last paper of the day was Social Studies.
For this paper, i got no comments....haha....didn't expect much from it, and anyway i got 18/25, i suppose i had done quite well as i leave a part of a 7 marks question blank! The final result was indeed moderate in the class, also showed that my effort on mugging SS essays was not a waste of time or anything!......................

Oh ya, we would be getting ready for our sec 3 camp soon at Msia! Yea........26th to 29th May! Shall be fun and interesting, filled with all the excitements and adventures!

2007-05-07T16:18:00.000+08:00

after 3 long weeks, a total of 6 working days, almost 400 hours of mugging on 9 subjects came to an end! what a great relief for me, having such an opportunity to be here alive, writing in my blog again after my Chinese lit elective that was held earlier today.

This 3 weeks had been hard, tiring, exhausting and stressful from the start of the first paper, English! Which was my weakest subject of all the other 10 subjects, but it was also the subject that i spent least time with.* maybe that's why it become my weakest subject ba!*

Chinese, had never been a problem to me if i dun flunk and i knew that i did not flunk it this time! And the composition was not bad, i hoped, coz the content was similar to wenbo the chounan.

When these two subjects passed, i started stressing myself as all the hardcore subject will be up killing us...hmm...i think i should thx god for giving me only a few killers when i expect a lot more to come. haha....

2007-05-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

our Eng teacher taught us never start with "It" as that was pri sch level but i was thinking, what if our standard was that low, can we use? haha....i guess her reaction would be "Aiiiiyoooo....u hor! whatever la....if u want to fail is your problem!" then i would answer, " U dun afraid of Mr lee scolding you ah?" :PP

haha...okay, get back to the subject, today was sucky, woke up so early with a heavy headache due to the flu i caught with 2 days ago...it's freaking sad coz I'm not suppose to be sick during the examination periods!! worse was 2 days before the longs paper i took this morning....BIOLOGY! OMG, i only have a word to describe,"SUCK!" with a serious headache and runny nose up the exam, I'm totally lost, merely blank on the first look at the paper.:( Luckily the revision kit on the Enzymes did help quite a lot as there were a dozens of questions on enzymes. In general, i just pray i dun flunk this subject or i would really think of dropping it. i would rather spent the excess energy on the other 2 sciences that i did better on.

1hour after my physics paper, the maths paper 2 came in place to end most of the students' Mid Year. Sadly, that excludes me, :(:(....but I'm not require to go for the frag day tmr at orchard! which is something i can be happy about at least! more time for me to rest at home, recuperating from this stupid cold.

Ya this morning i met my tuition friend at the platform. I chatted with her till Ang Mo Kio where she alighted the train. We just catch up each of our school life, and also the times we spent at EDUguide! haha hope she still remember the room we were once in together with all the others from different parts of Singapore coming together learning Science and at times fortune telling from Mr Khoo.....haha...we did have lots of fun during that period of time in Primary 6. Time gone by so fast, 3 yrs past. all of us grown up, matured! haha....less quarrels between us. YEA!

2007-05-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

today was a slacking day, camping at home sleeping most of the time...
but i was woke up early in the morning to accompany her down to the market to shop for some groceries. supposely to be shopping together when i was left carrying the basket for her again.....nvm...since it's not the first time doing that...

after that i went home and the first thing to do----sleep!--
Yes! finally a peaceful moment for myself as mum went to work...the tranquil was so soothing until the daily routine, excerise of my good neighbour started! Quarrelling outside the corridor! Such a "considerate" act of them to spread their love for their family to all the residents across the flat. *applause for them! No wonder non of my neighbours had ever made friends with them.
Sometimes i wonder why the old lady( non chinese, the same neighbour i was talking about) likes to put her pots on the corridor, filled in with soil and water in everyday when THERE WERE NO PLANTS IN IT! hmmm....Maybe she thought that with such a pot, it might reduce the heat from the Sun, lowing the average temperature experienced and the combination of H2O and Soil, Mixture of nitrate oxide, phosphorus, magnesium and carbon, might create extra air for her! and her only!

After the 3 hours sleep which took half my day, it was amazingly i finished mugging my geog and watched a movie. From the movie, i wanna share a quiz.

一只站的鹅和一只鸡放进冰箱里。
三天后，
鸡死了！
鹅却活下来！
为什么呢？
因为，那只站的鹅，是企鹅！

This quiz was lame.. but interesting.. and really test the logic thinking of a person..

Ohya, i found a person's blog back to life! after almost a yr and the last time i visited the blog, she was still 13 going 14. ehhuh! the trend of blogging gets into her again!
That's why i say, Question Y is complicated! all along ! Had been like this!

I'm getting prepared for the Geog and Chem tmr! i will remember the coriolis effect and
Na+Cl -> NaCl ! Yes....

2007-04-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

finally thurs and fri had passed! which means 2 subjects down and i will have 6 more to complete the Mid Yr Exam.

It's really a fun experience when we have the chance to proceed our exams in the hall( especially, it's equiped with air-conditioners.) sort of cooling our tension and temperature down for our brain to process and function properly! Hmm....maybe i can do well this time..hahaha.....i will pray hard for sure!

besides that, the sensation of 300++ people doing the same paper with you, indeed help u to boost ur confidence somehow coz u will feel motivated when u noticed the person beside you had stopped their hands and you were still chionging to finish....or another one is feeling of high ego when u accidentaly noticed that the people around u were all thinking hard on their questions and you had finished, waiting for the bell....then normally we will start twisting our pens, wasting the time after checking the paper for a few times.

the english paper was the pain in the ass!i just cant get the idea of knocking wood! i mean like what the fuck is that.. he is a carpenter? or something like a job to kill bugs, termites? it was so difficult even to comprehen the passage until 3 quarters of the passage was read! IT'S ABOUT RELIGIOUS BELIEFS! hmm...i wonder people with the same standard of english will ever understand the gesis of that HG knocking wood! Anyway, the full paper was okay....haha..if nothing went off course...but i wont mistaken adoption as abortion for sure! some sort of reminder for me though....never overlook a question...or regrets came after the whole thing was over.

Chinese, never been a problem to me coz it's really shameful to lose out in my best subject over the years! a subject that i believe will hardly flunk, except things happened to cause troubles...paper was okay...some parts were tricky like the 城门失火，殃及池鱼, and not 后患无穷. this might be some stupidness in me which i feel it's bonded to me since Jan 12,seventeen years ago...other than that, everythings quite fine. i felt weird during the whole process of HCL exam, as the sec 4 on my right actually went to the toilet 3 TIMES! it's like OMG! maybe he has some problem with his bladder..aiyo...the toilet smells good meh! 1.30hr leh...and when i'm doing the last few questions, he had already stopped and was playing with his water bottle..tearing the covering plastic and having fun( this is prediction). an interesting scene was the accidentaly peep to the sec4's paper and got a shock! He merely write a sentence for a 4 marks question and 2 sentences for a 6 marks qn! i was like -.-"...he is waiting to fail.

i just hope i wont be in this state! NEVER EVER! Giving up an act of a failure! although sometimes, life is hard but compare to many many others, actually we are so much fortunate and bless for the equipments. at the same time, i also realise that sometimes we only can bring the horse to the water, the will to drink, still count on the horse itself...no point forcing it, i mean what for wasting time on something worthless for you when you had paid so heavily into it..what you had done, is not been ever credit and u also dun noe whether people appreciate it or whether they care about it in the first place.

i went to J8 today with joel, we look like gays for wearing adidas superstar, jeans and long sleeve shrit having our sleeves folded up to the elbow. When i saw him at the venue, i was like, hah....i guessed correctly that joel wore the same type of shirt as me....shld be something to be happy about. this proved that not only women had good instinct, man does as well!:P:P ......oh cannot forget the purpose going J8 was to support my sec 4 friend, Wilson Thong. into the final 20 of Campus Superstar. i was like so proud to have a friend who had such a good vocal.... still remember how i knew him 2 years ago at my primary sch during the teachers' day. i met him there when he was finding his teacher and both of us were the only 2 who wore the cat high symbolic green shorts and metal button shirt. i never talk to him till sec2 when i'm more daring then, i spoke to him for the 1st time and we shared our views in sch as well our places of memory, our pri sch, a sad thing to recall as it's going to merge with Yishun Pri for having a low P1 student intake. i think shld be both parties having the same problem, therefore MOE decided on this plan of merging. I was still thinking that merging school would be Ahmad Ibrahim, since it's so near, like neighbours. Even nearer than cat high and Raffles, coz it's merely separated by a coiled fence! like the berlin wall that separated the 2 sides. Felt really sad whenever i had the chance to pass PxPs and realised that the place i once stay for 6 years had actually changed it's appearance now..the sense of a partially home gone with the wind ever since it had been knocked down by the big trucks for a brand new campus to be build.

Well, now it's exam period, everything seemed occurring so fast! Subject after another, soon it will be over and i can start having a self claimed holiday for sometime before mugging for the common test. Just wish everyone good luck for ur exams, stay focus though. Do not leave any blanks, even u dun noe, just fill it up then leave it...

titleness

2007-04-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

hmm....hii bloggie,
here i back again, not jus to see you but also to share with you the happenings recently. well shall start.....

i will start from friday when i receive my chemistry and physics results back and i dun really understand i always cannot or unable to cope with both subjects wel. i was so confidence with my chem, for being the rep, i shall be good with it all the time. then i was sadly to see my marks to be such an average though. just could not imagine how careless i could be at times , to get all those silly mistakes that should never ever appear in my paper. just feel like knocking my head into the wall and get my brain out to check why am i so careless and forgetful to get the same question wrong consecutively.

Next was physics and was another disappointment to me. It's just freak for me to get this kind of marks ever since the start of secondary school science. A mere boarderline was seriously not for me, nor any of other subjects than ENG( WHICH I SERIOUSLY SUX AT IT, But improving) *hope so*. Still remember his comments, " I think you have some problem with you English man! all ur definitions are wrong!" Upon hearing, I was like emhmmmm....Yes!! I seriously sux to get all the definitions inside the tests either completely wrong or half the marks deducted for errors in describing. but this time, i dun blame my brain, coz i knew it's my fault for being a person who dun like to read books and take out time to slowly correct my errors in English unless i'm forced to. ( which is what my teacher force me to do at pri 5 and amazingly resulted an only improvement during my pri sch life)

Lastly came to Biology which the paper was returned today. For me, it's a some sort of sad as well, for not reading the pages completely. the point i missed in the test costed 3 points out of 20. I was like OMG, it was so dumb for me not to read up when i memerised everything besides that. wah.....so sian, there was no words for me to describe myself. Feeling these were lessons mend for me as steppings stones i hope. a guidance to overcome my mistakes in the future and score for my O level. Which i think shall be the priority now for me, and i will always bear this in mind of my targets and goals i wanted to achieve in my life.

For me, not much good things happens to me recently except for the help from joel's tuition teacher and Ms Chow for her guidance in Maths which i felt i seriously learnt alot and buckup alot as well from previous years. i also want to thank Mr Teo though.. for being such a good teacher as well as a friend who i can confide in and gave me support!

2007-04-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

Sorrie bloggie...
actually i had no mood to be here posting another entry....i did not want to do this but just sorry to vent my anger here...

i had just been frustrated over things that were not going very well recently for around 2 days with all the irritating people who surround me, killing my spirit in my nasty environment and claiming themselves to be some great people...

i hate to tell... hate to express in words as i know some how i will screw everything up for i cannot do a good job in describing ... seriously i do not know what the problem he had... taking things for granted and expect people doing so much things without even a thank you till the end.... you do not know what happening so far i believe and you had never ever spend a sec of your life to care for them. the only time when you do care was that issue had gone up to be an urgent case.

you live in your own world,we live ours, what happens with us had not be something or i should say you do not even care, you do your own things and expect others to be same like you, HELLO! we live in different world ,man! You are ( i dun noe what i shld say). You are selfish for what i think is due to your ignorance learnt somewhere on this earth where nobody knows....

I never regret for what i had done this year or last year. I know in my heart, i had did everything i could to stop some things from happening, but the result was ignorance. I knew a lot expectations fell on me. the fact is i did. I SERIOUSLY DID! I SWEAR! i tried so hard, no one see the effort. I wanted to be a nobody, then always caught up in trouble that i'm not wrong from the start till the end.

I wonder would he ever care about others feelings towards certain issues and do you know how much effort you want another person to waste for lending you a helping hand....hey, people are not your servant even for a friend! dun take them for granted! BECAUSE THINGS DO NOT COME CHEAP AND FRESH!

2007-04-03T17:37:00.000+08:00

Hey bloggie! Was been a long time ever since i last post.... don't blame me
for not coming here often as i got other stuffs that require me more than
writing a post everyday....normally i dun really like to bring school work back home
nowadays as i find it quite difficult for me to concentrate with the presence
of the my laptop.....

i could feel the temptation inside me, from the back of my head telling me to open it
and press the ON button. Maybe my brain's telling me the song " Couldn't take my eyes off you".....lingering back here. i tried to resist at times. ended up failing every time.

This week is full of events like the sports and aesthetic people striving for their gold with honest. *wondering what will we say and think if they dun get it since our school spent so much money on them compare to us the sports*
other than all these, it comes my sub sequence tests and soon my mid year examination which i sort of looking forward to.

and today, the bio lesson was so stressful... all the things were so new to us from the mesophyll and the epidermis, in addition with the physics and chemistry stuffs. I wonder how long can i last to see the light when the whole learning point is over and take a rest for the upcoming challenges...Life is full of these obstacles that we need to overcome...when you are not clear of anything, do not be afraid to open your precious mouth to consult ur friends, even if your friends do not understand like you, there are always teachers who are willing to lend their helping hands to students who willing to take initiative. I like adidas just as much i love their quote, "impossible is nothing".

Gotta let you off for a while from now and as well as dota, which i hope i can, till the end of this term, i would be able to perform better than last 3 months. To prove life w/t training will make me study better or best ever in 3 years life in cat high.

A lot of people asked me about my status in that matter after April, but i seriously caught in dilemma, the choice is not set till i find my true feeling for the gesis......

2007-03-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

came back home early as usual.
but i was seriously surprising to see my ex classmate in the same train as me
and talk to her for the first time since 3 yrs ago.
she did not change much, was almost the same as last time.
what differentiate her from my memory bank was just that few more sense of maturity

we chatted a while to catch up with each others life in our school,
all the thicks and thins we faced. also we talked about the renovation that our primary school is going through this year. Didn't go back there for quite some time and seriously wondering what was happening in there.. Hope i could get more information on the visit back during Teachers" Day...

actually i was feeling that coincidence had been occurring in me very often recently when i met another primary school friend at timezone. It was a place where you never ever to be expecting this kind of event to occur, too weird, too surprising as well fascinating by their occurrance in front of you, smiling, waving and a sweet "Hello!"
With these gestures, might just brighten up my day through.....haha....

i might not be very good in expressing myself through words, but i hope one day, one day there could be someone who understand and willing to share the happiness and sadness with me.....

2007-03-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Holidays were mend to be relaxing if without all the homework presence here.....*wishing* at least....

It the 2nd day and i had wasted both i think other than practising my 800m at the soccer field near my house....didn't really went out yesterday, was thinking of saving some money for myself....Watched 2 movies, Hollow Man 2 and Deathnote.....Really nice movies for both especially the second one....i really idolise the high standard of wits they could have in their brain.... I was predicting whether they can use more percentage of the brain than me.....should have.....certainly..

Such a long time without the it....now it was bored though....seriously when you watched others playing and you were at the side watching...the feel of it suck to the core... then i could not blame anyone as understanding was vanishing into air.....

Today, i seriously need to apologise though...was late for half an hour.....:P:P really paisei though.... overslept again for overnight gaming.....so in return, i waited for you at 3 to 4 plus.... even now.:D:D

The game at SRC was interesting though...mesmerising the days back then, when i first went up to the deck. Coach's words coming through the left ear, vanishing in seconds from the right ear..accompanied by the shaking of both legs and yet trying so hard to keep them still to the ground..... was thinking would i fall before the ball was pitched....

After our lunch at KFC, where i finished 1 chapter on chemistry of molecular structure of carbon, the same time digesting my Bandito. The rest over KFC was good. replenishing all the sweat spent under the hot sun watching......

We couldn't wait to get to our bus from kallang to Suntec Convection centre... there was quite a chaos on the way when Secondary Ones was so "quiet" though.... Wondering if their teachers bought ear plucks everyday?? :P:P....

Then two of us proceed on our trip while others all went home throught the MRT train....Nothing much changed at the city link but jus no ELLE's booth near cool the SONY VAIO display shelves showcasing the latest VAIO C "CHIC, CHIM & COOl", VAIO L, those laptops and desktop, i had only one word to describe, " FANTASTIC"! absolutely cool in the sense... YOU CANNOT RESIST IT!

I was planning to even working 2 full months just to own a VAIO L though....

The IT SHOW this year simply rocks. Everything over there was so new and stylish except for that FAKE IPOD NANO 2 some "B" salesmen selling, cheating on the innocent consummers who thought they had bought a stuff for such a "fantastic" price when they would cry over at home finding it was made by some other ulu factory not own by APPLE company...

Joel and I was squeezing through the huge crowd over all 3 floors, seriously torturing myself to all these pushing and shuffling by some rude mid-age uncle and aunties who never open their mouth to say " excuse me" before holding up their muscular arms to force us aside. I wondered whether a tape or something caught up in their mouth and that'swhy they were unable to even talk. The only well manner lady was the one at the cheap port hard disk booth when she asked me for the queue but sadly to tell her the damn freaking long queue that might awaits her was at the other end.

In the end, I bought a cooling fan for laptop and a nice speaker to blast some songs at home at times when i'm emo. while Joel got his port disk, and printer ink that entitle to 10% on purchase.

And lastly was his One Care MSN software worth $60 which i shared part of it for usage soon.
That means going to say bye bye to my avast. Time to change also. The sensation of safe using microsoft stuffs.

Think i will stop here...this post is far too long than expectation...

2007-03-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

the start of E-learning programme... and today was the first day....

Everything was quite okay just with some jam in the holy cat high portal when more than 1000 pupils signing in to access to their assignment....

Was having a lucky day been the early birds who did not caught up with the TP's favourite breakfast....

Done all the assignments online..left with those hard copies one....need serious rest for myself to keep alert nowadays....while dotaing through the whole day via zion....

Will be another E-learning tomorrow...got to pull myself out from that comfortable zone early or else...haha.....rofl.....

this part was dedicated to the other self who was been so lone withstanding the criticisms all these long....We fought together,never gave up on each other, the superb chemistry between us was the proof to all of you out there.

Now....all gone...although been together, the feeling no longer accompanied us...

But we believe in miracles.....miracles like hope as Hope is a state of mind, not of the world. Hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously heading for success, but rather an ability to work for something because it is good.

2007-03-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

These few weeks....

I'm dead....in total darkness....
no sight to my body or anything in my surrounding....
my heart shivers.....
my eye balls rolling from left to right, from right to left
then, nothing.....
it's just smell of teak woods suffocating my lungs.....
I'm pressing on my chest hard.....praying the miracle of O2 to get in.....
i waited.....with patience....
calming myself....i'm alright....no harm done here...relax....
1 hour, 2 hours, 3 hours.......
then......
cold sweats rolling on my skull, through the gaps inbetween the hairs....
the patience gone.....
i tried to turn my exhausted body......to reach you....
eeeekk.....
THE SPACE WAS TOO NARROW.....
i realised....
In the End...
I come to sense to gave up...totally....all you want...
I Tried....tired....
couldn't give you........
Disappointment.....not for you....
Me inside bleeding profusely....
...........
for what i couldn't and what i had could done but the outcome was unbearable to be seen.......
.........

2007-02-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

The season of Giving and Enjoyment

Delicate this post to my tuition friend of the past, someone whom i might see her every morning at the MRT station waiting for her friends or sitting next to the Today Newspaper Box....slacking...haha...i did notice your OK!

The tuition i had during primary school days was fun with pupils all around Yishun gathered at one place learning different subjects.....If not wrong i was the slackest one among all. That's what i think at that time as everyone seemed to be really concentrated to Mr Koh's speech and sometimes his Fortune telling....haha....Maybe this was every one's favourite activities to have during the bored lessons.....

Now, 3 years passed without any tuition....I started feeling uneasy initially but as time passed, the realisation of self study sometimes actually was more effective than paying $80 to 4 lessons per month......Then, these 2 months actually gave me lots of thoughts on myself....wondering whether i had been slacking too much like Wendy in Sec 1...... It's a bit difficult for me to really settle myself down on one thing at a time, just had this feeling that something really heavy is pressing down on my heart...making me difficult to breathe at times, then my brain was like lost almost every time during Physics, Biology and Chinese Lit lesson.....

Hoping this CNY was able to help me wash away all the bad luck of the past two months....start afresh again to get back my feelings on memorising subjects....

The setbacks shall be thrown aside when needed, and my life of study shall change.....

2007-02-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

The days that i experienced, never seen to be part of my life....i did not feel it to get into my life...just briefly browsing pass every second of it and i did not even try to hold on tight to it.....

Now, does the problem lies on me or on you? For that, i did not know the answer as no one knows the solution to it....Time may be needed here. For me, or for you? I have no idea of it...

Passed days was shit out of me.....subjects expected to be flunked but not that freaking subject that i had never even get borderline before....whether to laugh or to cry...depress was a alternative but it only can help for a time being....others still lays on myself to get through...

Sharing shoulders ba!! yeah......:)

To improve on my English shall be the antidote for my exhausted muscles of the shoulders and the back to agree helping me in hold on the burdens.....

Family is what i concern...
Love is what i give....
Faith is what i trust....
Perseverance is what i hold....
Tolerance is what i need.....
Friendship is what i want.....
Kinship is what i craved.....
for everything else...
You are what i believe....
Believe that you will give me support and never doubt decisions that i made....

2007-02-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

Being a new day.....

time is going fast....in the blink of an eye, my common tests are round the corner..which i think i might did badly this time as always being lazy in study at times....

maybe i'm not like my sister, i did not inherite the better genes from my parents on focusing on my job....although it is going to be bad, i will still try my very best to attain the best result.....

A very memorable cip at woodlands last wk... as always being hopeful, things went well and of course with you accompanying me throughout was great....never imagine i would feel library to be fun.....and the duration to be so short....like what others said, happiness are always short, difficult to enjoy every minute that we have.....

haha.....

2007-01-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

A NEW YEAR....

Entering the new chapter of my life within an hours time....
It's really hard to imagine this feeling....and this had been the 16th time that i'm going for....quite a tough job but i had always been looking forwards to every year....at the beginning of the year....

Feeling sad as my last 2 posts had been erased due to technical problems occurred in opera.....never use opera for posting anymore....unreliable....

This is my third year in Catholic High and so far, i'm still enjoying myself through events and not donations....

so to cut short this post....

imagining myself been in a mysterious portion of the universe....
filled with tiny particles floating in the air....
dancing along with the light that had been shone through the sky...
I straight up my fingers reaching towards the source...
it was so far, so far that only the chosen one is able to reach....

counting down the time......
one by one...till the last...i never imagine i could have bear through so much obstacles to obtain what i am now...certainly being tough through out....i hope i can meet the chosen one soon.....

Let this story continues.....

2007-01-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back to blog after the long holidays and the trip
to Chiang Mai, Thailand.

To me, this trip was a fruitful one, learning, gaining experiences through
events that happened everyday.....Competitions may be important,
experiences that i gained might had just stole the limelight it.

We met Nadd, our LO for the trip. A friendly, easy-going sister to me....always very approachable, polite and gentle.....A smile always hangs on her healthy tanned face.
She guided us and just made this trip interesting and full of laughters.....
What i wanted to say to her , :"Danke."

Besides that, I cherished this trip for it had been the last time i could played with our pioneer softball team, or good friends that i met in Catholic High.. and also the first few upper secondary students that i had known. The friendship was true, not under disguise of anything... pure like water....care were shared among us without anything in repay.
...

2nd day of the school reopen..I'm just excited to meet all the new teachers who will accompanied me through out this whole year.......Happy to see my friends back school together and mixed around again....

A new year, a new hope for myself as well as for those people who faithfully prayed for themselves for the well being of this whole year.

Soon, reaching my end of my 16 years and going into another chapter of my life....Recalling back, i really don't know how did i struggle through these years....It had been so fast that i could even stopped at anytime to catch my breathe and look around, taking my time to appreciate all the things that had done to me and people around me......

Knowing friends for these 3 years.....I had only 1 thing to say......"thankful" for everyone who willing to accept me and be my friends.....sending my innermost gratitude to some special ones who had made such a significant changes in me...making me a better person, a faithful and responsible in all ways.....

Ending my sentence here... and hope to be back soon.....

2006-12-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

conclusion de la joie, 喜びを見つけること,寻找快乐

Here, I'm back again....with sensations skimming through my body....
slowly, slowly, it builds up. More and more now......
I merged myself into the world of darkness......From there, I know the truth of my inner self.

Because I am not a Bank, I am not secure to you,
Because I am not a Clown, I cannot entertain you,
Because I am not a devil, I am not daring to you,
Because I am not a doctor, I am not patient to you,
Because I am not a French, I am not romantic to you,
Because I am not a inventor, I am not creative to you,
Because I am not a koala, I am not huggable to you,
Because I am not a Saint, I am not holy to you,
Because of all these, I can only send my true love for you.

Haha....emo craps.........

Just spent days with trainings and CIP at woodlands regional library....which was quite fun for me and hope for my friends as well.....We really learnt lots of stuffs with the hours spent over there....(actually we didn't expect to have so much fun)

I was having a good time or a should say enjoying the time takan some other school students who are doing CIP as well...haha....a bit evil....Muahaha....And tomorrow we are back again for another session........Cya lib...

2006-12-15T11:30:00.000+08:00

2-10's Wonderment......

Was enjoying myself for the second gathering BBQ party the previous night and it had been a great time spent with my friends at wenbin's place....( so happy to be at that venue coz it's very near my house....:D:D:D:D)

Wee went along with us around like 13 people altogether...which includes Wenbin, Ms Cheang, Fangyee, Qiming, Pok(Jason), Dom, Wendy(yunli), Ryan, Arron, Joel, QingShan, YongCai, Me and Wee....

Wee and me waited for yongcai under our block supposely at 7pm but he was late for 11mins......then we set foot to the OCBC Bank next to the ChongPang CC to meet up with Joel and QingShan.....as soon as we met, we strolled through the Chong Pang City to wenbin house where is located next to the army camp....haha so near though.....

When we reached and after registration......the search of the BBQ pit took us sometime....damn xian lor....The first thing that got into my eye upon reaching the pit was Arron sitting on the rocking toy horse......quite funny though....and all the rest were either starting the fire or having drinks at the side.....

I had a small cup of orange juice before proceeding to my favourite activity for BBQ......Becoming the chef....ahaha....was really tired but STINK....although BBQing came with all the consequences, it was accompanied by satisfaction when people were enjoying the food that u cooked...

We took turns to be the chef and it was also a chance for me to take a break, to taste my BBQ skills and amazingly, my food was nice....yeah....I think becoming a chef would be my second alternative for a job.....

The whole BBQ lasted till 9plus after a call from the volleyballers or i should say the caller is (Samuel)....it ended.....we packed together and some of us were playing 终极密码with the left food...also a way to finish some of the food though...haha.....

The second part of the party was spent in the pool room......all together we played 4 games....first game was Joel tagging with me against teng and Wendy......as a beginner... i was quite happy with my performance to score 2 balls.....the 2nd match was me tagging with Joel again against Wee and Ryan.....both teams made our effort and turned out to be really exciting match.....In the end we lost unashamedly to them with 1 strip left on the table before they hit in the black solid......

The following 2 matches were tight as well...as their skill was par with one another, we could not determine the outcome and we just wanted to know which side the luck stood to.....

Our party ended at 11pm.....from there we separately went back home....but not worries as we are still seeing each other next yr....a consolation to us from other class as there was not a need for us to change class......

This party was a bit different from the previous years... first of all was the ambience, calm, tranquil filled with excitement and urge to be with friends that we knew for 2 year or long than that.....It was a time for us to get together and shared our happiness and sadness we had in school.....I'm just looking forward to next year's class party.....

2006-12-12T20:03:00.000+08:00

An Untitled Post

Since the start of the holidays, i had been spending most of the time doing nothing at home......what was more interesting to me was my trainings and my outings.....time that i did not spend at home.....

My mum was back 2 days ago....glad to see her returning back....it had been quite lonely without her nagging and orderings.......haha....maybe i'm too used to live with her.....

She had brought lots of stuffs back....local delicacies, etc.... but she had forgot to buy stuffs for me and i remembered that i did remind her....hmm.....upset....

Recently i met up with some personal problems.....

1st was to that person....I really don't know how i can tell you what i want and even when i wanted to say....you never give me the chance.....for some reason, you will always find some excuses to "dodge" the communication with me.....Am I been stupid to listen to myself at times? I really don't know what i wanted most from you..... I'm caught in a dilemma here now....
Can anyone just advise....but i doubt anyone know my difficulties here....Maybe i should put it deep into my heart......hidden from everyone.....sealed....

Now i wanted to apologise to this person here....Just been sorry for indecisive at times....Hope you can understand my position at different situation.

2006-12-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

Camping Home...

Another day at home spending time with my friend.....we knew each other for almost 5 months....

Still remember the day i met him....it seemed like we are fated to be together....as i walked towards him....take a look at him...he glance back and gave me a friendly look in return which is telling me "I'm your friend dude, you will love me....we will get benefit from each other"

I hesitated....I'm afraid of been hurt by a stranger although i always wanting to make new friends...

I sat down....thinking.....my mind was full of concepts and ideas of protecting myself...
picking up my courage....i put my first step out and reach my hand to him....
He didn't mind what i had done and accept my request....since then we had been good friends and we almost see each other everyday.....

Days without him will be bore....missing his jokes, entertainments provided just cannot be measure in context....it's infinitely.....My com...

On the other hand....i need to emphasize not to neglect anything that is crucial in my life....knowing our prioties allows us to have a clear target for ourselves....

2006-11-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

Counting down the days passing by......i feel time is really flying, so fast, so fast
that it do not give me a chance to catch my breathe.

I did not even have the opportunity to glance at the people and things that nutures since young....

At times, i felt i had been put on so much burden that my shoulders became unwilling to fight through these hardships together....

I had been left alone again....in the dark....everything was so quite.....the sound of my breathing and tempo of heart seemed to be the only motions that told me "I'm still alive."

"Am I?" I asked myself....maybe i am, maybe i am not..... who knows?? The door of my heart had not been opened......It is not been open since the day I realise the state of the society that we are in....I never find a reason to do it...

2006-11-27T13:40:00.000+08:00

days back

Love this trip back home and felt it's a really fruitful one.

Visiting relatives and friends of my parents......going around places myself most of the time....feel bored by the loneliness....

Days spent at home watching movies and korean drama series....and i finished goong....although the quality of the content is not as good as the one in s'pore....

Sleeping alone in the night.....a really scary experience at first...then soon as i got used to the ambience....everything seemed to be calm and getting into a stage of silence in me.

Looking up into the sky at night....eyes of the unvierse blinking within the darkness ....a scene that can never be spotted in s'pore....

Traditions and culture passed down through generations been practised and it's also my first time taking part in the whole ritual. I felt being honour in some ways and it's also a chance for me to met up with relatives and people who might help me in the future.....

It was a brand new experience for me as well. The whole thing started with days of preparations (which i never took part). We prepared a total of 60++ dishes and incense paper. On that day, everything went well just with a minor mistakes as a beginner.....Sending our prayers to our honourable deities.

2006-11-04T07:27:00.000+08:00

Flying Day

Now i'm in Changi Airport and i jus cant imagine the feeling of been here again since last year's bangkok trip.........

This time, is back to home.....NOt much to say......Jus

Bon voyage!!

2006-11-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

The Great Gym

I went for gym tonight and it's damn hiong with all the exercises especially those working out on my core muscles......

Feeling that my core muscles are really weak though, i cannot even lift a weight properly..... maybe we focus too much on our arms and legs. We neglected the need of building up other muscles groups....

Hmmmm...... my new target is to building up my cores asap.....or else i will look like some freak....

2006-11-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

It's done!!!!

FInally after hours of work, the thing is done....Yeah.....i'm so happy.....hahaa.......

2006-11-01T14:57:00.000+08:00

Decision

It was a long day for me, waking up late had not been a luxury to me anymore(at least for now) cos today was the day they flying........

Receiving the answer from you actually surprises me to a certain extend. i did bot expect that as you are always the stubborn and had the mentality that you will always win.
I'm not sure whether it was correct to describe you this way, but it is how i feel about u. And now, that was a great decision for me to make. It can be a real beginning or an end.

I just wanna you to answer me a question;
" What is important to you now?"
I really need your answer as it matters a lot to me...

I went to queen's way shoppiong centre to buy a shirt for myself for my own holidays........
Well, it's quite busy for me and i was shed when i finally shopping. Almost slept in the bus if my friends were not joking during the ride......

When i returned back to yishun, i was shocked not to see you on the road.....I only knew it when u msg me....... I dun know how i felt about that but i'm just wordless in describing........

I'm sick and tired having the experiences of washing machine, twists and turns, hots and colds, eventually hurting myself again.....

Maybe one day, when you settled down with your feelings and burdens. Then you come to tell me the plight of yours............It's impossible for me to know when you treat me like a item to showoff.....

2006-10-31T19:46:00.000+08:00

The posting was out!!!!!!

Today was the last training for me in a month's time......so i will enjoy my holidays back home.....still gotta work really hard cos our season starts on the 3rd WEEK OF JANUARY. Refining my techniques to the best that i could myself to .....

Most importantly for today is that, our posting result was out and luckily, i got into triple science together with dom, yunli, fangyee, xuande and last of all jonathan cher....
I am happy only with this mapbe.......finally i can put some of the worries and burden inside my heart down.......

I was see them off to taiwan tomorrow.
What is left- me with a disappointment......

i wonder why they are worried that a student could do harm to them???
Do i look like those kind of people who is able to influence vast number of people?
It's just irony to know about this truth that time........even though i had been expecting that to happen, i never believe that reason was so crap....

2006-10-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

Resting holidays

A normal training day for me, was still meddling with the wallpaper that i promised........it's had been quite hard to produce this piece as i had changed it a few times due to amendments and sometimes due to the urge of producing a master piece for you......

So please give me some of your patience.......

i know that u believe in patience,
i know that u believe in trust,

But have u ever consider my feeling for what you believe?
i trusted you to give me chance ,
also i made chance myself,
what i got is just rejections and left out.

Feeling of the heart being loss and empty......Hahaa......i'm been EMO.....

2006-10-28T16:56:00.000+08:00

The day, Open house

it's was a hectic Saturday, everything seemed tired to me.......

sleep always too little to me......

Arrived in sch around 7.50am, we help MG on the preparations of the booths...... actually i was quite guilty of not staying back on thurs to help him cos the open house is for all of us and i jus pang......

Lucky, it went out well today, no much things and out training today was just throws and battings.....

2006-10-27T19:09:00.000+08:00

1st Day of Rest....

The holidays came finally afternoon such a long period of waiting. It can be good as well as bad to some ppl though.....

For me, it's about REST!!!! YES!!!! No more waking up at 5.30am in the morning anymore...........Muahahahaa.......

Life is luxury to me now.........with only trainings and cip at woodlands sometimes..........maybe i will take this chance to read more books.........aim for a B3 for english next yr and i will get a good present from him....

2006-10-26T20:02:00.000+08:00

Choices

Sometimes i wonder if i had made the correct decision to wait.
He advises me to think twice and see whether the sacrifice i made is worthly.

I'm caught in a dilemma in choosing the correct path to continue,
as the verdict comes, i guessed what he said is right.
I'm jus a spare tyre.

Wondering why i can put down important things of mine but she cant?

Am i so insignificant to you?

Considering for what i had done so far. I dun think i have enough energy left for you. No matter how fast or how long a person can run, he will be tire one day without any encouragement.

Think it's time for me to take a break.....

Sisters in my life..

2006-10-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

Life is the process which we face difficulties and i cannot deny that everyone needs friends and families to motivate them during different situations.
And it's no exception for me.

I have 2 sisters.
I love them with all of my heart.
Wanted to thank them with my innermost gratitude.
Supporting everything that they do is my part.
Offering my listening ears whenever u need.
Lend my helping hands at any situations.
Missing ur lots and hope our relationships strong forever.
Whenever i feel down, i will always get the motivation to go on from ur.
Thinking through the days we been together.
Without ur presence, there will not be me standing here now.
Expressing my love through this blog, Jus hope ur dun mind.

The Drives!!!!!!!

2006-10-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

Through the dives, feeling the pain through the sand.........

The ambience was good today,maybe due to the low pollutant standard index. We were back in training, with normal warm ups and throws, i could really feel that i had a clear mind for the 1st time.

Breathing in fresh air for the first time since 2 weeks ago.... f##k those cultivators who burnt down forests w/o considering the health of people in the neighbouring countries.... causing infection to my poor throat, and driness on my lips. i wonder if they ever consider in the event that the victims were their own families..

Logic Of Life

2006-10-24T16:45:00.000+08:00

Life is process whereby we experienced happiness and sadness through every event that we went through.

Through these, we learnt lessons that helped us to become success in the future. At the same time, we cannot neglect all the people who had helped u in one way or another. They spent their precious time to cultivate the uniqueness in u, help u to succeed.

Logic of life is very simple. As we walked down the road, dreams and inspirations come into screen. They become the motivation to push us forward, but dreams and inspirations can be something that is unreachable. Therefore we need to know our own abilities, ask opinions from those people who cared about you and then, determined whether to persue our dreams. Sometimes, things are difficult to accept but life is also about struggle and facing reality.

Never try to hide from reality,using another alternative to run away from it. 所谓，“吃得苦中苦，方为人上人”

Keep relfecting on ur weak points, improve them before set foot for greater things.

All the best to you if u are reflecting on urself and eventually know ur own mistakes.

Emergency under the HOT SUN!!!!!!

2006-10-23T15:22:00.000+08:00

Having a bored bored morning playing chess in the class accompanied with film "Jackass", a stupid show with people making fun and torturing themselves....It's like ****.....

When it came to the emergency exercise, everyone is like so excited....well, soon our excitement became torment.... WE sat under the hot sun for almost like half an hour, sun bathing and drenching our uniform.....

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