Had six hours of remedial this morning and went out with her in the afternoon while ben was unable to fork out his time to join us.
i guess it's better than virtual times everyday, real person is so much prettier than thoughts. All the things, however, still got to be out of reach for me since there's more important things to do.
i guess what i mean for the previous post( the bottom part) is more for someone that irritates me through his choice of words and reactions. It's just my uneasiness when he is been so "mature", while others have to succumb to his feelings and conform?
I still want to be myself, when i'm with my friends, i want to be myself. I just wanted to be person whose emotions are not restricted by your subnormal comments and opinions.
I mean, what do you try to do. I am being myself while u try to change other people's actions? BE SOMEONE THAT EVERYONE LOOK UP TO? BE SOMEONE EVERYONE LIKES? BE SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT HIMSELF MORE THAN OTHERS?
I guess even religious did not change you much, instead, it build up your ego to "outshine".
Sunday, July 20, 2008 it has been a long time since i last blogged. what a day for me, 19th july 2008. JOEL"S BIRTHDAY! so of course, as a best buddy, a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! haha hope u like the belt and slippers. wear them often okay! i jus feel that maybe birthday is a time for us to show appreciations for our good buddies. therefore, joel, i appreciate u!
the CHMA, that stands for Catholic High Music Award, ended at 2230 tonight. general commnet for this yr was, it was quite okay, a brand new experience from Springsfield on his hosting, guided by mark tan at the side! haha, counting that's his first formal hosting on such a major event, he was quite steady throughout, not very intimidated by the rowdy crowd. floating postcards and flying spark lights. i am most amazed by their special lucky draw this time to be a stamp pasted on a postcard on the brochure. what a waste on the sticker that sticks on the back of my chair!! i was praying so hard that this yr would be stickers again yet i was disappointed.
the limelight for this year was mostly concentrated on Algin Lau. The most popular person in cat high for this cohort of students for the time being. Everyone is so high up and excited when anything falls onto him!
was having chinese followed by biology and maths this morning. jus cant imagine this is a routine that i will be going through for the next few weeks or so before prelim 3. for now, even i hold dearly of my results, i wonder how am i going to endure all these. in any case, for what i know, i will do my utmost.
people ask me, can O's change a person?
my answer is, O's dun, Results does.
what affects me most is my results. the pride in me just cannot allow me to lose out in such an easy way. recalling primary school days when i could surpass the whole class and now, everyone else surpassing me. this contradiction is making me frustrated. i'm not suppose to be such a lousy person. I AM NOT!
“我是整过容，可是你们为什么一直挖人家的伤口？” this sentence is indeed classic to me. coz i jus dun like people to pin point something just to make themselves more superior? or jus want to show off their intellecture in front of girls. If u are, show me in your results and i will let u be more superior than i am. else, i will be jus despising u.
i love night time, it's giving me the comfort and tranquility.
the world that is far reached.
the redundance of pushing out ur hands.
need not stretch ur arms out.
jus stay put, be urself.
there's no different views from people.
i am who i am regardless of my background.
i am showing you the best part of myself and now is you to decide. be the judge urself.
to be conformed or to have an uniqueness in u.
let it be a norm or let it be a potential fashion.
