Tuesday, November 06, 2007
I rushed this morning, worrying not able to catch up the never waiting MRT train. The swift paces i'm having give no chance for me to observe the tranquility and the solemnity the surrounding is feeding me...OMG...i'm always lacking, lacking the time and the interest to get myself calm down, put down my work, everything that i have off my hands. To sit down, feel the air, observe and analyse the differences of the commuters who are like me, rushing every day and night. If you ever ask them, why do you work so hard and always putting up a glum face, always focus on their task, endeavour. They will stand firmly and answered, I'm doing it all for my family and people that i love. I want to provide them the daily necessities and they will be happy. But but but, are they really happy? i do not know. 见仁见智....Hectic days, as always. Once there was a person telling me, I wish i could be sick. I asked,"why?" He said, "It's tiring man! Maybe been sick is the only excuse we can give to escape from this!" I was wonder if all the things we did were useful? As in, for the purpose for some of us. Of course i cannot question whether it's right or wrong but getting ourselves so tired, staying out everyday just to get jobs done. Are we missing out things? And one good news that i'm changing class next year! haha...hope it to be a place with good facilities and environment! Or else we will always be complaining, shouting and dulan-ing the school's system. Just noted that this year's arrangement for our programme actually failed when our sec 1s had totally absorbed nothing good but the devil side of us. Their results simply cannot compare to my time of 1-9. They suppose not able to as we top the whole level for that year. Even though i said they are not suppose to win, the result they obtained might not even compare to our average! haha.. that also showed how qiang the 1-9, 2005 was!I had a chat with my friend recently regarding me. Yes, it's me! Been observant, he told me i had actually missed a lot of chances. Not one or two but at least more nearing to ten. Be specific, the chance of getting into a relationship. Ohya, actually i realised that as well but it's always too late to get things back. What is gone, I'm just unable to get back but i did not want to cry over this for i know I'm might not be ready for any of these. Getting myself involved, i might have the temporary happiness, eventually this kind of puppies love would not last. It's not philosophy but thoughts i have. They could be my consolations for slipping the opportunities, on the other hand, i might just have salvage myself from a trap. A emotional trap that held you so tightly, you would be grasping for the little amount of air. Wait, let me stop here, will be back soon:D
::11/06/2007 11:35:00 PM
