Thursday, November 01, 2007
I don't know what to say but I'm down, sad, bored, stressed....... Why I just cannot get over things like this! Oh my god! I'm facing dilemma again.... The tug of war is bothering me ever since this had started! Argh....... Please give me some space, just a little bit space to take in some air that keeps me breathing. Why did you stood there doing nothing and leaving me in lurch! You don't love me anymore? I yelled! I screamed! You did not move..... What i remembered vividly is your grim, that will always attracts my attention regardless what happened but now, it's gone! Gone forever.......The life in me vaporises every second and minutes.....Hours till the death, I look up. There you are appearing in front of me with your signature smile. I reached out my hands, closer and closer. Just inches towards you. I jumped and hold onto you. The texture, the feel.....It's nothing there..... but images or illusions are pulling your legs! Fell to the knees, i know I'm just imagining all the time about the perfect world. It's impossible yet i cannot put myself to the fact. I'm trying the Great escape..... escape from the cruelty world....ruthless..... a world that is so practical that only money could keeps the world goes round and round. It's time to face the music....Be a man and know what have to be done. Not for yourselves but others. People around you and people you care. Little did i expect things to come out this way. I'm busy, always busy..... really sorry to miss you outings that makes me feel so guilty! I need time, more time, time for me to reflect, to think, to find time for myself and get back to track. I know i cannot present myself well with my words for I'm not an articulate person but just give me time to show you I'm worth for you to love.
::11/01/2007 11:47:00 PM
