Friday, November 23, 2007
Here I'm back again, to revive you from the dead. I know it had been quite some time when this holidays had been such a trouble for me. haha... was thinking of changing the password for my laptop and then how could i ever forget it!!!! haha... lucky those i manage to get it reset from another admin account. Or else i wont be accessing this account or even blogging anymore. A sign for me to stop everything that's regarding computer or IT and focus back to my own studies now. Will that works for me? I know it's quite impossible to do so now as for i'm too in a holiday mode. Nothing can ever change my way of life unless the triggering point is reached. Till then, i will always be with you! :)Today marks the departure of Ms Chow and my Aunt to overseas. Hah, such a coincidence right! The first is going Krabi via Bangkok for a vacation and i just hope she can really enjoy herself down there. Shop till she cry! haha... The latter one went back to Chn to visit her parents and her family. And i know it's snowing over there! OMG snowing leh! i never seen snow so far in my 17years 10 months of time. I'm just been envious of places with snowing! Sound so fun and all the things we can play with snow. A snowman! Snow fights! And must remember being a softballer i guess i can take a good advantage in snow fights! :D haha... but then, just a dream to look forward to. Things might not be as good as we had expected at time. I just wonder if the next generation were able to see these scenes if the global warming and everything that is damaging the earth still goes on. Who wants economy to go down for the sake of Earth? Being human, we are selfish for things that are abundant and threats not been seen instantaneously. Just accept the fact that one day the 2 glaciers will melt and cities will be flooded. Face it and we will know what to do then. At times money is not everything. I'm trying to remind myself as much as possible before the brain-wash when i enter the society. In times of great decisions. We need to choose one side between the dilemma. Back to my life, and i realise I had been spending tons on bowling recently, fun yet expensive though! still going well with my slow and steady balls.. and pick myself up to continue the winning streak! hahaaaa....
::11/23/2007 01:55:00 AM
Friday, November 09, 2007
What can i say about my freaking basting neighbour where World War is occurring every day and night and i make sure you find no gap for you to really be in a state of silence. Playing fire crackers along the corridor is okay but please do not play outside other people's house. What the fuck you want to have fun and create so much disturbance to others. Inconsiderate people. BAST! BLOODY HELL! One day you and your family will FUCKING realise you are doing the wrong thing because you had just made one more person to prejudice against your! A house of inconsiderate people. Argh... I believe they are not not taught by their parents. The fact is their parents are these kind of people, what do you expect from their next generation. A batch of ill-mannered people.Okay, let that end. I shall not be angry over it and revenge which will make me to be no difference from them. Getting back here, I should have a good mood here blogging my daily events that giving me such a motivation to become better. (but just don't get blisters) Was at LianHua Primary School this afternoon for CIP(community involvement programme). The final time going there for this year. And today was also the final of the Kids Athletic Competition. More than 17 teams were up for the challenge to become the overall champion for this competition. Without the participation of RGS, today was a bit bored without toast going around. And also seeing people with brain without common sense. 100 as study smart, 0 for street smart. hahahahah........ Just imagine..... and you foresee! :PRecently i had started falling for stories. Plain though she is, I love her and always will. It may seem impossible to accept that a police officer could actually be in love with a petty criminal, but I am. She may not be very attractive looking at first glance, but after getting to know her deeper, I found her to be adorable. The first time I met her, she was in deep trouble. A group of boys had her surrounded in the street and were about to attack her. I blew my whistle and ran forward. One look at my blue uniform and the boys took to their heels. They did not look back. Having no real interest in catching them, as I did not know if they had committed any crime, I returned to attend to the "victim".She was standing there looking after the fleeing boys and she had a satisfied smile on her lips. I walked up and asked her if she was hurt. She shook her head, mumbled her thanks and began to walk away. I looked after her until she disappeared from my sight. "The smartest pickpocket in the street," said a voice.I wheeled around and saw Officer Sandy smiling at me. "Why?" I asked."That girl that you were looking at just now," she said. Then she continued to tell me all about the girl. Her name was Vivian and she was 18 years old. She was a school dropout. She had to stop school at the age of 12 because she both her parents had been killed in an accident. She had to bring up her brother who was still in school. Everyone knew that she was a pickpocket but no one had been able to prove anything. In fact Sandy suspect that some of the officers actually left her alone because of pity. I was astounded and decided to investigate.It took a week for me to confirm that everything Officer Sandy had told me was true. One more thing I found out was that Vivian's brother was in secondary school. I decided to do something about it. I began to follow Vivian. She had a kind heart and picked on only rich people. She even gave some of her loot to charity!As I had expected, within a week I caught her in the act. It was in a supermarket and i saw her bumped "accidentally" into a gentleman, and took the opportunity to pick his pocket at the same time. Next minute my hand gripped hers. She turned to face me angrily and the next minute her anger turned to fear and then tears came streaming down her cheeks. She looked pathetic and i would never forget the look she gave me that day. "Return it!" i ordered coldly. She nodded vigorously and walked up to the gentleman and returned him his wallet, explaining that she had found it on the floor. I signalled to her and walked with her to the cafe. There i gave her a long lecture and warned her against any future crime. I told her to meet me the next day.She did as i instructed her and I took her to a friend's company. I told him everything about her and he agreed to give her a chance to reform. I call on her frequently now; on the pretext of checking on her. So far she does not suspect that my interest in her is not all official. I have only one problem now: telling her how i really feel about her. They never taught us how in the Academy.
::11/09/2007 11:19:00 PM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
As i know, life had never been smooth for me and that's why I'm always learning lessons. From school, to home, to friends and to relationships. Obstacles after another, from simple ones to those life killing task. What i been through sometimes cannot be described through words or any other symbols. 因为一切都在不言中...That's why I'm telling a story here, for been bored....not just bored but thinking of you! Cloudy looked across at his rival. All the three nurses were around him. Something had to be done to make them look his way. With a deft "accidental" movement he knocked the kidney dish. With a loud clatter, the utensil fell to the floor. They had to look his way now and did. He pointed with pretended helpnessless at the floor. Cindy rushed over with a broad smile and picked it up for him. Then they all came over. He looked across at his rival. Their eyes met; Cloudy saw the dagger in Sunny's eyes and smiled in triumph. He had won again! After they left, he smiled and waved at Sunny again. His heart glowed. Victory was sweet.4pm was visiting time. He looked around at all the ancient warriors and their visitors. As usual, Cloudy and he were the only ones without visitors. He decided he would fix that. He struggled to his feet. Painfully, step by step he hobbled to the bed at the far end. Mary's visitors would talk to him. Unlike everyone else, Mary always had visitors to spare. Not all of them could talk to Mary at the same time so some would talk to him. Of course they did. They asked about his health; his family; whether he had eaten and so on. He felt a glow of pride and looked across at his rival. Sunny could not walk; so he could not "borrow" visitors from other patients. Cloudy saw that he was pretending to read and chuckled to himself. Obviously Sunny was avoiding his eyes. Then he hobbled back to his bed, but not before passing Sunny and giving him a triumphant, gloating smile. Sunny turned away.As usual Cloudy rose at dawn. It was a habit. Birds chirping always woke him up. He closed his eyes and prayed. He prayed that that day too would triumph over his rival. But something was bothering him. It was something nagging; something uncomfortable; something demanding to be addressed. It was about the rivalry. He tried to push the thoughts away but it pushed its way back in. Suddenly, it dawned on him. All this victories were empty. The care of the staffs was just drama. the enquiries by Mary's visitors was drama. They did not really care did they? In one big drama. Tears filled his eyes. He had sinned. He prayed to God for forgiveness. He decided he would put everything right later that morning; no, he would do it immediately. He looked across at Sunny's bed. The curtains were drawn. Obviously he was sleeping. He had to wait till later after all.he smiled at his own cleverness. He had a plan. As soon as it was bright enough, he would walk over to Sunny's bed. He would be direct. He would smile at him. He would apologise for his hard-heartedness. Sunny would understand and apologise in return. They would then laugh heartily over their rivalry. They would become friends. After that they would not have to worry about seeking attention from the staffs or from other patient's visitors anymore. They would have each other. He wondered if Sunny played chess. He decided he probably did. He knew Sunny was intellectual. Did he not read the whole day? Everything would be alright. He smiled to himself again.Then he saw a covered cart coming stealthily into the ward. He wondered whom it was for. he saw it being pushed straight to Sunny's bed. A feeling of emptiness gripped his heart as floods of tears streamed down his face.....
::11/07/2007 08:34:00 PM
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
I rushed this morning, worrying not able to catch up the never waiting MRT train. The swift paces i'm having give no chance for me to observe the tranquility and the solemnity the surrounding is feeding me...OMG...i'm always lacking, lacking the time and the interest to get myself calm down, put down my work, everything that i have off my hands. To sit down, feel the air, observe and analyse the differences of the commuters who are like me, rushing every day and night. If you ever ask them, why do you work so hard and always putting up a glum face, always focus on their task, endeavour. They will stand firmly and answered, I'm doing it all for my family and people that i love. I want to provide them the daily necessities and they will be happy. But but but, are they really happy? i do not know. 见仁见智....Hectic days, as always. Once there was a person telling me, I wish i could be sick. I asked,"why?" He said, "It's tiring man! Maybe been sick is the only excuse we can give to escape from this!" I was wonder if all the things we did were useful? As in, for the purpose for some of us. Of course i cannot question whether it's right or wrong but getting ourselves so tired, staying out everyday just to get jobs done. Are we missing out things? And one good news that i'm changing class next year! haha...hope it to be a place with good facilities and environment! Or else we will always be complaining, shouting and dulan-ing the school's system. Just noted that this year's arrangement for our programme actually failed when our sec 1s had totally absorbed nothing good but the devil side of us. Their results simply cannot compare to my time of 1-9. They suppose not able to as we top the whole level for that year. Even though i said they are not suppose to win, the result they obtained might not even compare to our average! haha.. that also showed how qiang the 1-9, 2005 was!I had a chat with my friend recently regarding me. Yes, it's me! Been observant, he told me i had actually missed a lot of chances. Not one or two but at least more nearing to ten. Be specific, the chance of getting into a relationship. Ohya, actually i realised that as well but it's always too late to get things back. What is gone, I'm just unable to get back but i did not want to cry over this for i know I'm might not be ready for any of these. Getting myself involved, i might have the temporary happiness, eventually this kind of puppies love would not last. It's not philosophy but thoughts i have. They could be my consolations for slipping the opportunities, on the other hand, i might just have salvage myself from a trap. A emotional trap that held you so tightly, you would be grasping for the little amount of air. Wait, let me stop here, will be back soon:D
::11/06/2007 11:35:00 PM
Friday, November 02, 2007
Other than tired what can I comment about this holidays? One of the most hectic days i ever had. Rushing over places getting things and appoinments completed! Eventful instead but draining energy off for more important things that had to be done. I do not know whether am I right in the first place but I understand the circumstances of it. Cannot blame anyone else than myself for I'm the one choosing it. Loving it man! No excuse or nothing. Accepting is the only solution now. Fated to it i supposed. No chance of escaping anymore. My mum whispered to me, "Son, be strong. I have faith in you! You need to stand up on your own. Learn your lessons and I know you will be better than now. Even reaching a greater height!
::11/02/2007 11:43:00 PM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
I don't know what to say but I'm down, sad, bored, stressed....... Why I just cannot get over things like this! Oh my god! I'm facing dilemma again.... The tug of war is bothering me ever since this had started! Argh....... Please give me some space, just a little bit space to take in some air that keeps me breathing. Why did you stood there doing nothing and leaving me in lurch! You don't love me anymore? I yelled! I screamed! You did not move..... What i remembered vividly is your grim, that will always attracts my attention regardless what happened but now, it's gone! Gone forever.......The life in me vaporises every second and minutes.....Hours till the death, I look up. There you are appearing in front of me with your signature smile. I reached out my hands, closer and closer. Just inches towards you. I jumped and hold onto you. The texture, the feel.....It's nothing there..... but images or illusions are pulling your legs! Fell to the knees, i know I'm just imagining all the time about the perfect world. It's impossible yet i cannot put myself to the fact. I'm trying the Great escape..... escape from the cruelty world....ruthless..... a world that is so practical that only money could keeps the world goes round and round. It's time to face the music....Be a man and know what have to be done. Not for yourselves but others. People around you and people you care. Little did i expect things to come out this way. I'm busy, always busy..... really sorry to miss you outings that makes me feel so guilty! I need time, more time, time for me to reflect, to think, to find time for myself and get back to track. I know i cannot present myself well with my words for I'm not an articulate person but just give me time to show you I'm worth for you to love.
::11/01/2007 11:47:00 PM
